[ he asks point-blank, not even waiting for izou to finish off where his words trailed off. there is no hint of hesitation to his own words. really, what was so different? even yuwon doesn't know the answer to that. his own decisions have surely led to death, and he had even orchestrated it to a certain degree with his own hands, and yet...
he isn't sure why these reactions had a way of sticking to the inside of his mind; his own self unable to reach it in order to scrub it away. he's always been dismissive of his own emotions, and obviously, others aren't the same, and he doesn't hold those expectations, but it was a bit frustrating to see all the same. ]
I didn't say that. [ that he didn't give a shit, that is. but, it probably doesn't help that his tone hasn't changed. ] I just think you can feel as bad as you want, even drink until you throw it up, but that isn't going to erase your half-baked guilt. No one can predict the future. Clearly, neither could they. [ LILITH, that is. otherwise, they could have called it quits on their mission at any time, and yet they didn't. it isn't that he's passing over that sense of culpability, but just displaying that even the people who brought them here weren't capable of reading all the potential outcomes, and so how could they? ]
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[ he asks point-blank, not even waiting for izou to finish off where his words trailed off. there is no hint of hesitation to his own words. really, what was so different? even yuwon doesn't know the answer to that. his own decisions have surely led to death, and he had even orchestrated it to a certain degree with his own hands, and yet...
he isn't sure why these reactions had a way of sticking to the inside of his mind; his own self unable to reach it in order to scrub it away. he's always been dismissive of his own emotions, and obviously, others aren't the same, and he doesn't hold those expectations, but it was a bit frustrating to see all the same. ]
I didn't say that. [ that he didn't give a shit, that is. but, it probably doesn't help that his tone hasn't changed. ] I just think you can feel as bad as you want, even drink until you throw it up, but that isn't going to erase your half-baked guilt. No one can predict the future. Clearly, neither could they. [ LILITH, that is. otherwise, they could have called it quits on their mission at any time, and yet they didn't. it isn't that he's passing over that sense of culpability, but just displaying that even the people who brought them here weren't capable of reading all the potential outcomes, and so how could they? ]