Not a pleasant feeling, and March reacts before she fully processes, one hand coming up to try and push his finger back. Away from her. And she recognizes that feeling welling up in her, one she's pushed down several times already, because there are people she can yell at and lose her temper with, but Izou has been hurt before. Izou has suffered and been unable to trust and she gets that, she wants to be careful, but.
Something snaps. She pushes off against the wall, just enough to fist her hand into the front of whatever he's wearing, and the dullness in her eyes? That's gone. She's glaring. ]
I just told you I wasn't fine! If I thought I couldn't rely on you, I would've lied through my teeth! All of that--all of that, what I just said, is how I deal with it, whether you think I was joking or not! What do you want me to say, Izou?!
[ Oh, this is hurting her throat. Oh, she should stop. She should really stop.
But she doesn't. ]
You want me to say I was against chasing after it? You want me to say that I feel like I'd rather be back in that ice block again because at least then I didn't have to feel how much this hurts?! Fine! I had to make Kabru drink something before he keeled over from blaming himself! All I could do for Marcie was hold her!! I didn't say a thing about Malkuth's post because I knew it was going to explode and I didn't have the energy to say anything even though she's my best friend!
I-- [ She takes a wobbly breath, eyes glistening. ] I'd feel ten times worse if I made anyone deal with me right now! But sure, whatever, let's just say I'm joking!!
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Not a pleasant feeling, and March reacts before she fully processes, one hand coming up to try and push his finger back. Away from her. And she recognizes that feeling welling up in her, one she's pushed down several times already, because there are people she can yell at and lose her temper with, but Izou has been hurt before. Izou has suffered and been unable to trust and she gets that, she wants to be careful, but.
Something snaps. She pushes off against the wall, just enough to fist her hand into the front of whatever he's wearing, and the dullness in her eyes? That's gone. She's glaring. ]
I just told you I wasn't fine! If I thought I couldn't rely on you, I would've lied through my teeth! All of that--all of that, what I just said, is how I deal with it, whether you think I was joking or not! What do you want me to say, Izou?!
[ Oh, this is hurting her throat. Oh, she should stop. She should really stop.
But she doesn't. ]
You want me to say I was against chasing after it? You want me to say that I feel like I'd rather be back in that ice block again because at least then I didn't have to feel how much this hurts?! Fine! I had to make Kabru drink something before he keeled over from blaming himself! All I could do for Marcie was hold her!! I didn't say a thing about Malkuth's post because I knew it was going to explode and I didn't have the energy to say anything even though she's my best friend!
I-- [ She takes a wobbly breath, eyes glistening. ] I'd feel ten times worse if I made anyone deal with me right now! But sure, whatever, let's just say I'm joking!!