[katsuki has no intention of shattering denji's idea of marriage. he did just give the guy a promise ring. "later" is simply an extension of "now" with zero idea of refusal. their time together doesn't need to change (albeit winter months mean katsuki spending more time sleeping in denji's bed because it's stupid cold) and their actions together continue on as normal. cooking, fighting, learning, training, policing, living, etc. he doesn't want to leave his boyfriend's side.
check another one off the list then. what a blessing not to be able to read minds and thus not be privy to that copious list in his mate's head. denji's not only a romantic sap, but a romantic sappy nerd. hosts of dreams and fantasies gleaned from television and books that obviously paint very real and factual pictures of how things happen in life. how many of those are going to get smacked in the face with a reality check? ... then again, denji's getting to make out with his boyfriend in a lake surrounded by fireflies in the lantern light. so maybe he's got a point. katsuki will be the judge of whether something's "too weird" to go for, or if he'll accept it then and there or needs some time to think about it. after all, it took quite some time for him to accept kissing in the kitchen, due to the public space and wanting to keep it clean. but denji's quiet, continued work on the blonde's barriers slowly unlocks new elements one after another. sharing a drink for the first time is probably one of the biggest wins against katsuki's clean image challenger.
that little laugh warms his chest and he rubs his thumb across denji's cheek again. of course he took it as a threat. the guy said it that way! must say something to the half-devil's charm that he can get away with threatening the hero and not finding himself ass up over a tree branch smoked to a crisp. denji's ability to bring that lightness and warmth to his chest is a gift katsuki won't ever be able to admit how appreciative of it he is. yet he takes it each time and rests within it.]
Uh-huh. [that earns him a knock of his knuckle against his boyfriend's water-beaded forehead. sure, "attention" from denji's paid when he's personally invested in something, but even that's not fastidious academic learning. add his besotted expression right now, hazy eyes glowing in the lantern light, a lopsided grin? yeah, katsuki's sure this is going in one ear and out the other. until one part proves itself such a huge knot, it rams into said ear and sticks there with a jolt to the head. not surprising which part it is.]
Aa. For a short while by choice. [granted katsuki's always been wary of lilith's tech not being under full control. things "break" and "accidents" happen, embarrassing factors tumble free, who knows if the same will be true of the rings in the future? they have to gamble on that. katsuki's as conflicted and adverse to the suggestion as denji it. his emotions and feelings and thoughts are private, something he only wants to show when he wants to show them, under his own control. risking those things spilling into his boyfriend's body sounds like a fucking mess waiting to happen.]
That's what I heard.
[feeling your partners' emotions, seeing what they see, hearing what they hear. he hasn't encountered anyone saying the ring lets you experience the tactile sensation, but who knows. meaning denji could potentially get railroaded by katsuki's aggressive pride and short temper. like hell is he planning on letting this option happen without mutual agreement between the two of them! denji doesn't need to be burdened by his ideas and feeling of heroics (does it even work that way?) but how would he feel if he could also feel the sensation of pride katsuki has when he sees his boyfriend's success? or those soft emotions of affection and happiness the blonde usually buries under his scowl or only lets out while watching denji sleep beside him... vulnerable expressions that chafe against his proud external appearance. or perhaps it is as denji wonders, something that only goes surface level and no deeper. he doesn't know. is that better, the simple ones?]
I'm not gonna turn it on unless we both agree to it in the moment.
[he loves you, but his feelings are private.]
[ooc: i meant his childhood, not the cluster-fuck that was year one of u.a. well, i do think he has some ptsd regarding getting kidnapped/almost killed by sludge villain, as well as his kidnapping by the league, but those are more specific triggers. like the nape of his neck. he's the one who blames himself over all might's retirement. and yeah, his death in the war was pretty holy fuck.
i brought katsuki from right after he was revived by edgeshot and rescued all might. essentially a moment before he got ready to fire off at kid-all-for-one. so he has ninja heart and wrecked arm, but we didn't know the results of that until way later in the year, sooo... i obvs couldn't play with that in mind. hence just his chest scar.
still, yeah denji's trauma versus katsuki's trauma is like dark vs light, haha. sometimes i wonder if gege just likes tormenting denji. come on, there's a limit to treating your character like shit, man. sheesh.
it's not that i don't go into katsuki's trauma, it's more that he keeps those things so close to his chest, it's almost impossible for him to let someone else see them and assist him with it. he's a self-reliant guy after all. but we can definitely make some plans on letting denji in there in future events!]
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check another one off the list then. what a blessing not to be able to read minds and thus not be privy to that copious list in his mate's head. denji's not only a romantic sap, but a romantic sappy nerd. hosts of dreams and fantasies gleaned from television and books that obviously paint very real and factual pictures of how things happen in life. how many of those are going to get smacked in the face with a reality check? ... then again, denji's getting to make out with his boyfriend in a lake surrounded by fireflies in the lantern light. so maybe he's got a point. katsuki will be the judge of whether something's "too weird" to go for, or if he'll accept it then and there or needs some time to think about it. after all, it took quite some time for him to accept kissing in the kitchen, due to the public space and wanting to keep it clean. but denji's quiet, continued work on the blonde's barriers slowly unlocks new elements one after another. sharing a drink for the first time is probably one of the biggest wins against katsuki's clean image challenger.
that little laugh warms his chest and he rubs his thumb across denji's cheek again. of course he took it as a threat. the guy said it that way! must say something to the half-devil's charm that he can get away with threatening the hero and not finding himself ass up over a tree branch smoked to a crisp. denji's ability to bring that lightness and warmth to his chest is a gift katsuki won't ever be able to admit how appreciative of it he is. yet he takes it each time and rests within it.]
Uh-huh. [that earns him a knock of his knuckle against his boyfriend's water-beaded forehead. sure, "attention" from denji's paid when he's personally invested in something, but even that's not fastidious academic learning. add his besotted expression right now, hazy eyes glowing in the lantern light, a lopsided grin? yeah, katsuki's sure this is going in one ear and out the other. until one part proves itself such a huge knot, it rams into said ear and sticks there with a jolt to the head. not surprising which part it is.]
Aa. For a short while by choice. [granted katsuki's always been wary of lilith's tech not being under full control. things "break" and "accidents" happen, embarrassing factors tumble free, who knows if the same will be true of the rings in the future? they have to gamble on that. katsuki's as conflicted and adverse to the suggestion as denji it. his emotions and feelings and thoughts are private, something he only wants to show when he wants to show them, under his own control. risking those things spilling into his boyfriend's body sounds like a fucking mess waiting to happen.]
That's what I heard.
[feeling your partners' emotions, seeing what they see, hearing what they hear. he hasn't encountered anyone saying the ring lets you experience the tactile sensation, but who knows. meaning denji could potentially get railroaded by katsuki's aggressive pride and short temper. like hell is he planning on letting this option happen without mutual agreement between the two of them! denji doesn't need to be burdened by his ideas and feeling of heroics (does it even work that way?) but how would he feel if he could also feel the sensation of pride katsuki has when he sees his boyfriend's success? or those soft emotions of affection and happiness the blonde usually buries under his scowl or only lets out while watching denji sleep beside him... vulnerable expressions that chafe against his proud external appearance. or perhaps it is as denji wonders, something that only goes surface level and no deeper. he doesn't know. is that better, the simple ones?]
I'm not gonna turn it on unless we both agree to it in the moment.
[he loves you, but his feelings are private.]
[ooc: i meant his childhood, not the cluster-fuck that was year one of u.a. well, i do think he has some ptsd regarding getting kidnapped/almost killed by sludge villain, as well as his kidnapping by the league, but those are more specific triggers. like the nape of his neck. he's the one who blames himself over all might's retirement. and yeah, his death in the war was pretty holy fuck.
i brought katsuki from right after he was revived by edgeshot and rescued all might. essentially a moment before he got ready to fire off at kid-all-for-one. so he has ninja heart and wrecked arm, but we didn't know the results of that until way later in the year, sooo... i obvs couldn't play with that in mind. hence just his chest scar.
still, yeah denji's trauma versus katsuki's trauma is like dark vs light, haha. sometimes i wonder if gege just likes tormenting denji. come on, there's a limit to treating your character like shit, man. sheesh.
it's not that i don't go into katsuki's trauma, it's more that he keeps those things so close to his chest, it's almost impossible for him to let someone else see them and assist him with it. he's a self-reliant guy after all. but we can definitely make some plans on letting denji in there in future events!]