[It's definitely something most folks struggle to understand, the bond between shinki and god. He's simplifying it for the sake of trying to keep things brief, but the connection they share is a strong one. Something humans tend not to be able to grasp completely. At least he can convey how important she was - and is still - to him.]

She was. One of the kindest people I've ever known. [Which makes her fate all the more cruel.] Yeah. She was my secret. I knew my dad wouldn't approve, so I never told him about her. But I think he knew - or my sister told him. Either way, my sister let slip about the God's Greatest Secret: a shinki's human name. She convinced Sakura to beg me to reveal it to her, and despite my entire being screaming for me not to... I did.

[Here, his hands start to shake, trembling so hard the alcohol sloshes around in his glass as he dips his head in shame.]

Telling her what her name was lead to all her memories flooding back, breaking her shinki name and turning her into an ayakashi immediately. A monster. She was in so much pain... All I could do was... kill her.