Even if you think you should have been better then, you're still trying your best now, right? You're a different god entirely, even! ( If he's picking up the correct things on how that goes. ) You've changed. And you meant well. I really believe that, Yato.

( And he isn't stupid, he sees the parallels here. It's why he's sure no matter what he says his friend will still blame himself for it, even if it's just a little. So he downs the rest of his drink in one go, fills both their glasses back up, takes a deep breath. )

I'm the reason Rem died. I'm the reason a lot of people died. I'm actually the reason the rest are all stuck on a barren planet too. ( A faint edge of hysteria there, before he takes another mouthful to drown it down. ) So I get it. I really do. It's hard to shake it off, and sometimes it feels like no matter what you do, or how far you go, or who you save you'll never pull yourself from that very first thing. But we have to try, right? And we deserve to? I think you do, anyway. And I'm working on the rest for myself.