I know, and I think anyone else who knows you would also be aware of that. You're not a bad guy, sometimes bad things just happen. And it's what we do now that matters, right?

( He appreciates the touch, it's steadying. It means he smiles when he breathes in, lets out a sigh. ) It was something like that, yeah. And I don't want to let go of my part in it, I think it's what makes me try so hard now. But I also know that there's nothing I can do, and beating myself up about it won't help anyone.

( It's entirely possible he'll go back on that thought once or twice from hereon out, but the attempt is the important part. )

I do really like people. I've made so many friends here, and it's nice to not have to leave anyone behind because I'm afraid. It feels good to stick around, put down roots. ( He laughs a little at that, a small heh of sound. ) I don't know, it's right to keep doing that, you know?