I don't really think you're understanding what I'm saying, Silco-san.
[ Yuji swallows, his back a little straighter as he stares at him, watching. ]
I had a monster inside of my for a long time. He took control of my body, and he made me do things - things that I hated myself for. My determination to kill him... I was already willing to do whatever it took. Whatever I had to do to make it happen.
[ There's a hoarseness to his voice now, something sharp, making his voice come out quieter and a little more on edge. ]
My hands are stained with blood. I've eaten things that no one else in the world should ever have to eat, because it was the only choice I had. To make sure that a monster died, I was ready to become just as bad as he was. And I did it in the end, and I saved people I loved, but it didn't bring those people back.
[ Shaking his head, he runs a shaky hand - missing two fingers - through his hair. ]
I'm not the kid that you think I am, but that's okay. I think I'd rather have people see me as that Yuji than the one that had to fight, or... The one that was ready to kill every single curse in the world if I had to.
[ Fighting Sukuna changed him, shaped him. He consumed fingers, brothers, blood, he fought, he swapped bodies and became someone new and different - but he's not alone in that. Other people did too, and Yuji wouldn't ever compare his experiences with what his friends went through, but he knows if he shared every single detail of what happened...
Well. It would be judged.
After a moment, he looks at Silco and laughs quietly. ]
Woah, we really got into some sad stuff, didn't we? Maybe we should go and do something else for a while. Did you ever write your letters?
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[ Yuji swallows, his back a little straighter as he stares at him, watching. ]
I had a monster inside of my for a long time. He took control of my body, and he made me do things - things that I hated myself for. My determination to kill him... I was already willing to do whatever it took. Whatever I had to do to make it happen.
[ There's a hoarseness to his voice now, something sharp, making his voice come out quieter and a little more on edge. ]
My hands are stained with blood. I've eaten things that no one else in the world should ever have to eat, because it was the only choice I had. To make sure that a monster died, I was ready to become just as bad as he was. And I did it in the end, and I saved people I loved, but it didn't bring those people back.
[ Shaking his head, he runs a shaky hand - missing two fingers - through his hair. ]
I'm not the kid that you think I am, but that's okay. I think I'd rather have people see me as that Yuji than the one that had to fight, or... The one that was ready to kill every single curse in the world if I had to.
[ Fighting Sukuna changed him, shaped him. He consumed fingers, brothers, blood, he fought, he swapped bodies and became someone new and different - but he's not alone in that. Other people did too, and Yuji wouldn't ever compare his experiences with what his friends went through, but he knows if he shared every single detail of what happened...
Well. It would be judged.
After a moment, he looks at Silco and laughs quietly. ]
Woah, we really got into some sad stuff, didn't we? Maybe we should go and do something else for a while. Did you ever write your letters?