You were angry, hurt - sad and even spiteful, I would imagine. This is what I felt when Ishtar descended to the Underworld. But I am going to take this a step further, if you want me to think logically.
I don't think you like yourself very much. But because you hate the old you even more, It's better being who you are now than who you used to be.
You hate it, but it's comfortable. It's like you're wearing something that makes the world hurt you less. But that also means all the positive emotions are out of your reach... Until someone tries to pull you out of it.
Unfortunately, you killed the one who tried doing that for you. I am fortunate that I didn't kill the one who did it for me.
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This is what I felt when Ishtar descended to the Underworld.
But I am going to take this a step further, if you want me to think logically.
I don't think you like yourself very much.
But because you hate the old you even more,
It's better being who you are now than who you used to be.
You hate it, but it's comfortable.
It's like you're wearing something that makes the world hurt you less.
But that also means all the positive emotions are out of your reach...
Until someone tries to pull you out of it.
Unfortunately, you killed the one who tried doing that for you.
I am fortunate that I didn't kill the one who did it for me.