( He grimaces, old feelings drudged up like silt at the bottom of a usually placid lake. )
They were quiet then. Nanako was braver that her sister, she'd tell me what they needed. But Mimiko was more frightened. I had to cut her hair the second night because they'd left the both of them filthy. I gave her the worst bob you can imagine, Silco-san. It was lopsided. She didn't cry though. There was blood on my uniform and we had nowhere to go, and I was seventeen cutting a five year old's hair in the Combini bathroom, because there was nothing else for us. And they still trusted me, even though they'd seen the corpses.
( He hadn't known what he was doing then, when he had taken them from the village. Certainly there had been no plan to keep them. He'd just wanted them safe. But there was no one. The higher-ups would have executed Geto and then either done the same to the girls, or forced them to be the same kind of soldier he was. He hadn't wanted that. He couldn't go back to his parents - he'd killed them by then, a clean break. It was just him. He sniffs, toying with his glass. )
I love them. I miss them very much. I know people see me as a heartless monster, but all I ever wanted was a world where they could be safe. Where no one would harm them again. I'd do the same thing in a heartbeat if I had to.
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( He grimaces, old feelings drudged up like silt at the bottom of a usually placid lake. )
They were quiet then. Nanako was braver that her sister, she'd tell me what they needed. But Mimiko was more frightened. I had to cut her hair the second night because they'd left the both of them filthy. I gave her the worst bob you can imagine, Silco-san. It was lopsided. She didn't cry though. There was blood on my uniform and we had nowhere to go, and I was seventeen cutting a five year old's hair in the Combini bathroom, because there was nothing else for us. And they still trusted me, even though they'd seen the corpses.
( He hadn't known what he was doing then, when he had taken them from the village. Certainly there had been no plan to keep them. He'd just wanted them safe. But there was no one. The higher-ups would have executed Geto and then either done the same to the girls, or forced them to be the same kind of soldier he was. He hadn't wanted that. He couldn't go back to his parents - he'd killed them by then, a clean break. It was just him. He sniffs, toying with his glass. )
I love them. I miss them very much. I know people see me as a heartless monster, but all I ever wanted was a world where they could be safe. Where no one would harm them again. I'd do the same thing in a heartbeat if I had to.