[ he squints, still trying to hear the 'i find him attractive' part but all he gets is emotional statements which he has heard before from several other people. it didn't influence him as much until he heard it from megumi, and — for the first time, he started acknowledging maybe something is off about his mindset when it comes to intimicy. it had always been purely physical to denji, almost as if he didn't care if the person had a shitty personality so long as he could enjoy the visual and the 'feel' of them. it's not like he had a future to share with someone, no long-term plan to date, settle down and start a family(?). isn't this how normal people function? maybe that's why he didn't care, or justified that it didn't matter. he's dead once his time here ends and he's back home.
if only he knew megumi's time here, in this city, is precious as well. ]
... Does it hurt?
[ denji been rejected so many times but he never really 'loved' them in a way that would make him — feel anything. megumi's case is different. ]
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[ he squints, still trying to hear the 'i find him attractive' part but all he gets is emotional statements which he has heard before from several other people. it didn't influence him as much until he heard it from megumi, and — for the first time, he started acknowledging maybe something is off about his mindset when it comes to intimicy. it had always been purely physical to denji, almost as if he didn't care if the person had a shitty personality so long as he could enjoy the visual and the 'feel' of them. it's not like he had a future to share with someone, no long-term plan to date, settle down and start a family(?). isn't this how normal people function? maybe that's why he didn't care, or justified that it didn't matter. he's dead once his time here ends and he's back home.
if only he knew megumi's time here, in this city, is precious as well. ]
... Does it hurt?
[ denji been rejected so many times but he never really 'loved' them in a way that would make him — feel anything. megumi's case is different. ]