( OPEN ) feel like i'm falling down

[eyescar]

WHO: Yuji Itadori & you!
WHAT: Yuji has once again been the first guinea pig for the upgrades on offer from LILITH and is paying the price.
WHERE: Across the base
WHEN: End of the month
WARNINGS: References to brain surgery, time distortion, and other medical related things. Info about the side effects of the surgery here.

A.

[ The first moments after being released from the medical room are fine - or, Yuji thinks they're fine, at least. Megumi takes him back to his room and takes care of him, but eventually he gets a little stir-crazy and wants to go and get something to eat, and that leads him to the situation that he's in right now.

Anyone coming across Yuji in the corridor will see him walking down, but at a strangely slow pace. It's as if he's tiptoeing, and he has a face of such utter concentration on his features that it might be endearing if he wasn't also wincing, holding his arms out either side of him. It's as if he's walking along a balance beam, wobbling here and there.

It's comical, and when he realises someone is in front of him he lifts his head, slowly, as if underwater. ]

... Hi?

B.

[ Getting out of bed was probably a mistake.

Yuji had made his way to the library, a quiet place where he wouldn't have to worry too much about being bothered or poked and prodded, but everything had felt so loud. Every time he tried to sit down the pain of it was enough to have him twitching, tears prickling in his eyes, and when he lifts his hand to wipe them away it's as if someone has shoved a hot poker against his skin. It's too much, and way worse than the surgery he had last time, that for a moment he wonders if it was worth it.

(It will be, once this is over, but right now he feels as if his body is out of control).

The overstimulation leads him to crawling under one of the tables, tucking himself against it and shoving his face into his knees, looking far too much like his brother for anyone not to notice the similarities should they come across Choso hiding in the future.

He's crying off and on, but doing his best to pretend he isn't, just in case someone comes across him. ]

C.

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Comments

for the boys B)

[rikugan]

[ gojo typically has what one would call an unorthodox and hands off approach to teaching his students. he prefers it if they can learn from each other and, most importantly, improve upon their individual skills through their own efforts. when appropriate, he doesn't mind guiding them, but at the end of the day, he values achieving breakthroughs through hard work, perseverance and independent thinking. he trusts in them to maintain focus and grow in their strengths at their own pace.

—or, well, more accurately speaking, he had trusted them, until two of his first years decided that it would be more advantageous if they'd just skip a couple of steps and get a high risk surgery to give them extra perks. apparently, individualism and resilience are laughable in the face of advanced tech.

gojo really doesn't care what people choose to do with their bodies. he also understands why yuji and megumi made their choice, yet if they had bothered to ask him (instead of alerting him at the last minute), he would have told them that he didn't approve of it.

disregarding whatever condition his boys are in now, gojo has teleported both of them into his room and, for the first time, he regards both of them without a hint of his usual humor. leaning back against a wall, he shifts his gaze from one to the other as he slips his hands into his pants' pockets.

and then he releases a sigh. let's begin then. ]

To start off, I'm not mad. I'm not here to scold you or hold this against you because what's done is done. We can't turn back the clock. And I understand why you did it. I just expected... more from you two, but my judgment was wrong. That's a failing on my part. I should have realized that circumstances have changed and we are now in a new setting with new opportunities and those new opportunities are apparently tempting. But as tempting as they are, I thought that you would at least run it by me first. So, I'm gonna ask you a simple question to circumvent us having this conversation again: do you still consider me as your sensei?

hits you

[eyescar]

[ Yuji knows he's in trouble.

The moment Gojo-sensei collects him and Megumi and takes them off elsewhere, he knows that something is wrong, that awkward, bubbling feeling inside of him. He's always been a good boy, doing what he's told and following instructions, doing the best that he can, and that hasn't changed since he was here. The first time he got the upgrade it was because he had no hope of being able to heal otherwise (healing himself is something else), and this time...

He knows he can train his body to get stronger. That he can 'cheat' by taking advantage of other things and using his stupid, messed up body to get whatever advantage he can get against Sukuna is a gift, one of the few things that he is able to do as a vessel turned cage. If this is something that he can do to win, then isn't it something he has to do? Isn't this something that he has to try and do here, before he's sent back home?

If there's even a chance of things working out, then he'll do it.

Kneeling, staring at his lap, he frowns as Gojo speaks, until the end happens, and his eyes lift. The hurt in them is obvious, a sting, as if Gojo has reached inside of him and torn his heart out, stomped on it (and he would know, he's felt that before, hasn't he, the literal, physical feeling of it an aching hurt).

Gojo-sensei knows how to get right to the heart of someone like Yuji Itadori, and he blinks back the hurt, sad tears that make his cheeks burn. ]

You're my sensei. That hasn't changed.

[ His teacher, but not his parent, even if Yuji -

He grits his teeth.

Gojo-sensei hasn't been here. He hasn't been back, to feel the echoes of the moments after what happens to him happens. Hasn't seen and felt the hopelessness that Yuji has seen and felt in himself, pathetic and broken and unable to do... Anything. It's just a stupid upgrade, it doesn't matter, it doesn't mean anything - and yet.

It's enough to earn him this, and he feels queasy. ]