( catch-all)

[cranekin]

WHO: Tsurumaru Kuninaga and you
WHAT: Various prompts for July
WHERE: Various
WHEN: July into August
WARNINGS: N/A for now

catch-all for the month, open to using event prompts, setting up starters, etc.
if you would like an original starter or have your own idea, hit me up yosakoi | discord: diejoubus

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[queenofkur]

[ She'll debate him! No allowing her precious Tsururu to speak of himself in such terms any more. And she can tell he disagrees with her assessment. So she'll work the rebuttal to his disagreement into her answer. ]

It can happen to gods as well, but... It definitely was a surprise.

[ And now, to put her disagreement with him into words while still staying on topic: ]

But I realized that... How much loathing and disdain I hold for myself in my heart is what facilitated everything. Perhaps I could have fought the corruption, had I not been so harsh with myself.

[ And... She thinks that applies to him, too. If he thinks of himself as a twisted spirit who can never understand humans, how easy does that make it for such corruptions to worm their way into his heart? Though it's hard... The way to fight this is to try and care for themselves better. Starting by ceasing all this talk about them being terrible and twisted, much as they may believe it. ]

I'm sorry Tsuru, I failed you, but I... I promise to do my utmost so I never will again.

[cranekin]

(Even if the conversation is not the most direct one, the points aren't missed. He listens to her quietly without argument and even considers the other meanings in her words.

Because of the loathing and disdain in her heart that she'd been able to fall. Likewise, she can also recognize the same self-loathing he has for himself which had allowed him to fall in the same way. For all of his confidence and whimsy that he presents to others and even the grief that he doesn't try to hide, he rarely lets others know about that other darkness he carries, the one that whispers into his ear when he's alone with his thoughts. The voice that tells him he isn't strong enough, that he doesn't understand enough, that something is deeply wrong with him.

Reaching out, he'll try to take Ereshkigal's hands in his. It's a reassuring motion and he tries to match with his tone,)

When you were alone in the Rift, what did your heart tell you?

(As similar as they are, he wants to understand more.)

[queenofkur]

[ What did her heart tell her...? ]

To scream for help.

[ There was the urge to see humanity destroyed, all of those negative emotions and in the midst of it all? She was terrified. She hated that she could become such a thing. She wanted someone - anyone - to hold her and comfort her. But there hadn't been anyone. Not until she'd summoned the "guardians." ]

That's what I did, eventually. [She tilts her head down. She'd rationalized the summoning as her needing guardians, but truthfully? She may have succeeded in eradicating humanity had she been alone. Their disappearance rang the alarm bell and caused everyone to swarm her Underworld to rescue them.] I guess it succeeded in the end, but... It hurt some my most beloved friends.

[ Tsuru. Godzilla. Yzak. Hiyori. Ratio. And even Bakugou now. She'd never wanted to see any of them hurt... ]

But I won't allow for this to ever happen again. [She squeezes his hand and turns to look at him.] The Ereshkigal who was so weak she would become an Evil of Humanity isn't who I want to be. And that's not who I am going to be any more.

[cranekin]

(Listening carefully, taking in her words, hearing her explain her fall and outline her future rise... he can't help but admire her. Even if it's just a gentle squeeze, he can feel her strength and he looks down at their hands.)

You called me from the dark and if I was stronger, I could have done more to save you from it.

(He wonders how much it would have helped. Having experienced the rift himself, he knows how strong its effects had been.)

I could have screamed your name until you listened but instead... I silenced everything instead of saying what needed to be said for us both.

(He still won't look up, instead, focusing on their hands, a little while longer. Gently, he gives her a small squeeze,)

I'll become stronger, too.

[queenofkur]

[ She listens. He's so harsh on himself, as he always is. But he's also realistic. They have to acknowledge what's wrong with them if they want for things to get better, right? She remains silent for a little moment after he's finished. ]

You now how I've seen a possible future of me in the rift? Well I... I saw a second one too. She had also become a Beast, but she decided to use her powers for good even if it went against her nature. She fought alongside humans with no anxiety or doubts plaguing her. When I think back to that possible future, I can't help but think...

[ A pause, and: ]

"Wow, she really loves every second of her life."

[ That's... Exactly the kind of future she dreams of. One where she'd be happy, where she wouldn't let her nature tell her what she must do, one where she's confident and a force of good. She has this chance, that she saw both those possible futures. But Tsuru? He only saw his bad ending.

So she suddenly leans forward and pulls him into a hug. ]

We've seen the worst we are capable of... But there's also some wonderful things sleeping in our hearts. And in yours especially. I can see them, even if you don't. Aki too, and all your friends. [She's definitely not starting to cry happy tears.] And if you ever flinch or falter, I-I'll remind you of it.