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[OPEN] Lost in paradise

WHO: March 7th and anyone who wants to witness this
WHAT: Post-upgrade Problems...
WHERE: Around the base, around Japan
WHEN: April 12th and up to a week after that
WARNINGS: None so far!

A. Post-Surgery

[ Choices were made. March may or may not regret them a little, but upon remembering things like how badly injured so many of the Outsiders had been and Ishmael gritting her teeth while struggling to walk, she'd ultimately decided it was worth it.

Maybe not right now, though, not when she's kind of staggering around the base, looking very much Still In Pain and sheet-white. Of course, that's one thing. The other thing is that she looks completely disoriented and depending on where you find her, it's pretty obvious that it's not where she was trying to go. Maybe it's a non-Redemption wing. Maybe it's the cafeteria.

Maybe it's the rec room?? Maybe she's actually heading outside when she clearly shouldn't be??

If you're still not entirely sure what she's up to, she can be heard quietly muttering to herself in a shaky voice, definitely rattled-- ]

W-why is it so hard to find my room??

B. Compass Required

[ It's a day or so later! And she is.

... Not doing any better. Though at the very least, she's had some time to get the style upgrade implemented and is comfortably clothed in her much more familiar (to her) outfit from home.

But she hasn't actually been seen on the base all day, which probably isn't terribly strange, since March likes to go out and experience life, but at this point it's dark and if you're out at night, you might spot her. Talking to a few people who seem either amused or flummoxed by her current level of vexation. ]

No, sorry, I've definitely been to Shinjuku, and I know where it is on a map, I just--

I'm not drunk! Look, just tell me "this way" or "that way" and I'll figure it out from there!!

[ ... She has apparently been dealing with something similar for hours, given that she really does sound like she's on the verge of frustrated tears. ]

C. Bah Hummingbird

[ At this point, March has given up leaving the base on her own, so you can spot her in the greenhouse (though it's arguable whether she meant to be there or not), a cute little hummingbird perched on her shoulder. She's taking pictures of the plants, though she pauses to glance up when she realizes she's got company, offering a smile that is definitely a lot steadier than the mess she's been over the past few days. ]

These little guys are pretty cute, aren't they? I'm more of a dog person, but I gotta admit, they've got a lot of appeal!

[ OOC: Also fine with doing custom starters if nothing catches your interest! ]

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I mean I had coffee with him a little while back and we started off on the wrong foot, but we're friends now, so when he sobered up from that... weird drunk texting thing that went on for him, he asked me for advice.

[ A shrug. ]

I really let him have it, actually.

[ ... wh... what did... he tell her....... what did he ask her? advice? malkuth doesn't know if she wants to know. she's staring at her hands. ]

Oh, I see. Okay. Yeah, um... that. Happened.

[ kinda

wanna leave. but she's trapped. she let herself be trapped. ]

What did you let him have it over?

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[ Does she really want to let her know he showed her the message log...

A pause, and then March leans forward, gently pressing their foreheads together. ]

He said he told you that you deserved better. And I told him he should have asked you what you actually wanted.

[ no............ she doesn't want to know any of that. please keep it a secret. think of your friend always as an innocent, sweet young woman who would never send thigh pics to a guy.

the forehead touch is nice. it reminds her of kaito, though she doesn't know why, though the statement that follows after has her cheeks warming. ]

... He's always saying that to me. I've kind of gotten used to it, as frustrating as it is.

[ just like she'd gotten used to being looked over, gotten used to doing more than she really should have just to... ]

He apologized a lot too. Actually, that's something him and Kaito have in common -- it really, really ticks me off. Like... [ the words struggle for a moment, before she curls her fingers against march's. her voice comes out soft and strained. ] Do they hate that they like me so much, or something?

[ is it just a them thing? is it an everyone thing? maybe she's just someone who's destined to be apologized to, or... ]

You shouldn't have to get used to it. [ It's a rebellious mutter, but then March huffs lightly. ]

... And that's not it. I don't know what kind of lack of self-esteem they have, but they don't seem to have any kind of faith in making people happy. But a guy who can't confess without apologizing needs a lot of work.

[ She's not impressed, guys. She's honestly a little surprised Kaito apologized. ]

It's not you, Mally. I guess if you look at it one way, they both like you a lot to say it in the first place, even if the execution was...

... [ Not great. ]

So your care probably got through to them, which is pretty amazing.

... I didn't do anything special. Except touch their faces.

[ it's a bit of a joke, but... she doesn't feel much like joking. just a shot. ]

Vergilius was drunk, and Kaito... was going to forget anyway. They might like me enough to say it, but not at a time where it'll-- not matter, but...

[ ...

what's the word... she can't think of it. she shakes her head. ]

The more I turn it over in my head, the less sure I feel. I don't know what to do -- I just got used to making friends, Marmar, I haven't even thought of anything beyond that. Not that they seem like they want to go beyond that, which is fine, but. I don't know. In all my lives, I've never been confessed to once, but now I've gotten two in the same week?

[ march is right. she doesn't need a lovelife with whatever malkuth's got going on. ]

[ She really doesn't. March, within her heart, is definitely thinking that she's glad she doesn't have to think about her own love life anytime soon.

Sorry for your suffering, bestie. ]

I don't think you have to do anything, honestly. Like you said, you worked pretty hard on just making friends... so if you're not ready to think of what's beyond that, that's fine. And when you do, I'm here for you.

--Well, either way, I'm here for you. After I beat up Kaito.

[ Why did they both decide to do this at the same time, in uncertain states of mind?? She has no idea. ]

Oh, leave him alone. He's going through enough right now.

[ ... she'll touch their noses together for a little eskimo kiss. ]

And... I did tell him I didn't want him to apologize. I was really mad at him, you know? But he was really going at himself too, you'd never know it was the same person.

[ overemotional, young. a completely different side to the kaito they know. but one malkuth wants to know nonetheless, because he's still her friend. ]

I just... wanted him to stop doing that. I told him we could go step by step, but I don't really know what I meant by that either. He feels like he's getting in the way for some reason if he lets his feelings go any further, and... none of that sticks, not what I said or what he said, because the only thing I wrote down for him to remember was that he told me I was his most important person.

... So he has a second chance, I guess. Down the road. If he wants to do better.

[ if he wants to at all. it's. a lot more of a struggle with him than vergilius though, they're different, it's different. ]

And maybe by then, you'll have a clearer idea of what you want too.

[ With a lightness in her tone that indicates "no pressure" because people take different amounts of time. While she thinks she could handle it if someone confessed to her now, she'd need the time to process her own thoughts on the matter.

Which is fine, she doubts it'd happen. She's comfortable in her friendships.

But the eskimo kiss is duly returned before March leans back, retrieving the cotton ball. ]

I'll support you guys, you know. Whatever happens. But you owe me a third Thing, right?

Yeah.

[ to all of that. then, brightly: ]

You're gonna be a godmother!

... Huh?

[ Malkuth. Malkuth, please. ]

[ now she's just having fun. ]

Ryoji and I are gonna be parents.

[ a beat, before she continues on. ]

For a pair of ducks, once we can find some to adopt.

...

... ...

[ She's just leaning sideways against the wall, Deeply Exhausted. ]

Don't... do that to me, I wasn't ready to threaten another guy...

[ HAHAHA ]

I'm sorry, March! That's the really, really good news -- I'm so excited about it. Their names will be Mauve and Violet, and we're... maybe going to keep them in the greenhouse, and they'll have a kiddie pool to swim in.

[ there are so many problems with this plan, ]

He was really stoked by the idea too.

[ of course he was. Whew. ]

Well, if it's a godmother of ducks, I'm in.

I knew you would be! He's even picking up sewing so he can tailor their clothes if needed... Ryoji's pretty dependable, huh? I think he'd be a good papa.

[ such a nice guy. nevermind that he's

death it's fine, ]

[ Sometimes Death is chill and people who follow the Abundance are terrifying, she's learned. ]

Oh, I can help with them! I used to work on outfits for Pom-Pom all the time. And Ryoji's okay when he's not flirting with anyone and everyone.

[ So. When he's silent--no, I kid. ]

[ mean af ]

He's pretty much stopped that with me, since we're kinda similar in the things we focus on. Plenty of people compliment his dreamy eyes and sunny smile, but I like that he's sweet and always trying to find a way to make someone's day better... He heard me vent a little and asked if I'd like to hang out a little to distract myself, as an example.

[ it was really nice. really sweet of him, her heart squeezing tight at the memory of the text, biting back a grin. ]

It might just be flirting with the kind of lines he pulls, but he does mean them sincerely -- if only so the person he's telling them too can believe in it themselves. He doesn't say things just to say things.

[ March listens to this, before she closes her eyes with a slowly drawn-out sigh. Malkuth probably needs to hear things like this, to know people like that who are genuinely caring beneath a bunch of corny lines, and she accepts that.

Mostly. ]

If you end up with another crush, I'm not hunting him down to threaten him too. A girl needs to recover first.

What do you mean another? It's not like that, seriously! I know what it's like to have one, remember? They're hopeless and painful.

[ not... what she's been experiencing. the easy grins and fluttering hearts, eyes glancing down the hall to catch a glance and feeling so, so light when...

... crushes feel like they belong to the youth... nevermind that malkuth lost most of her own anyway. wow, her hands are so interesting. ]

Besides, even if I did, you really don't need to threaten anyone, Marmar... I'm a good judge of character.

[ don't bring up her first love ]

That's not the point, Mally. Character or not, most guys are really, really dense. Or bad at not sticking their foot in their mouth.

[ Or Vergilius. ]

[ or vergilius. ]

So it's more to get things moving than protecting my feelings?

It's both, but I also trust you to be able to handle your own heart.

[ what, after her terrible time in her first life???????? ]

Thanks. I do wanna know what it feels like to be... you know. Wanted, I guess. I was just tolerated by pretty much everyone in my first life.

[ she wasn't, but they're the memories that surface easiest. her pattering down the hall, apologizing to any she passed as she hurried, leaving a mess in her wake... returning a few steps to pick up papers and then be off again.

yeah, there's no way anyone looked at her with anything but aggravation. ]

... Huh. That's weird, I guess they all had bad taste.

[ That statement seems to bewilder her a fair amount, from the slow way she blinks. ]

But I do get that, I think. Not that I was tolerated, but you know, the flirts flirt with everyone, and it'd be nice if I was approached for that sort of thing just because it was me.

[ Unfortunately(??) no one's come up to her with apologetic confessions lately. Which is probably for the best. ]

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