synflux | ( OPEN ) feel like i'm falling down

WHO: Yuji Itadori & you!
WHAT: Yuji has once again been the first guinea pig for the upgrades on offer from LILITH and is paying the price.
WHERE: Across the base
WHEN: End of the month
WARNINGS: References to brain surgery, time distortion, and other medical related things. Info about the side effects of the surgery here.

A.

[ The first moments after being released from the medical room are fine - or, Yuji thinks they're fine, at least. Megumi takes him back to his room and takes care of him, but eventually he gets a little stir-crazy and wants to go and get something to eat, and that leads him to the situation that he's in right now.

Anyone coming across Yuji in the corridor will see him walking down, but at a strangely slow pace. It's as if he's tiptoeing, and he has a face of such utter concentration on his features that it might be endearing if he wasn't also wincing, holding his arms out either side of him. It's as if he's walking along a balance beam, wobbling here and there.

It's comical, and when he realises someone is in front of him he lifts his head, slowly, as if underwater. ]

... Hi?

[ Getting out of bed was probably a mistake.

Yuji had made his way to the library, a quiet place where he wouldn't have to worry too much about being bothered or poked and prodded, but everything had felt so loud. Every time he tried to sit down the pain of it was enough to have him twitching, tears prickling in his eyes, and when he lifts his hand to wipe them away it's as if someone has shoved a hot poker against his skin. It's too much, and way worse than the surgery he had last time, that for a moment he wonders if it was worth it.

(It will be, once this is over, but right now he feels as if his body is out of control).

The overstimulation leads him to crawling under one of the tables, tucking himself against it and shoving his face into his knees, looking far too much like his brother for anyone not to notice the similarities should they come across Choso hiding in the future.

He's crying off and on, but doing his best to pretend he isn't, just in case someone comes across him. ]

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Oh.

[Raidou has a shy hand in front of his mouth, blinking at Yuji. After a moment, he gingerly reaches out to free the token he now sees poking out from in between... a couple of condoms. A token for a stay at a hotel, apparently, as he turns it over in to inspect it.]

I-I see. That was. Um. Nice of them to offer.

[Is it getting hot in here? He feels like it's getting hot in here.]

I didn't there was, ah. A hotel like that. Around here. With cats.

It's because I was the first twice...

[ Yuji smothers his face in the pillow again, groaning. His head is hurting too much for this level of embarrassment...!!

When he speaks again, his voice is muffled against the fabric. ]

The other things were from him, because he heard about my 'circumstances' and wanted me to be 'responsible'. I was going to give them to Choso...

Ah.

["Circumstances", huh. Well, they weren't really keeping said circumstances a secret, LILITH probably monitors a lot of activity and conversations, they were even sleep together in one cot in the med bay after the last mission. Hard for them to not be aware at this point.

Raidou fiddles with his hat, and the cuffs of his shirt, as he often does when he's embarrassed.]

Well. He is a doctor.

[So Dr. Spim would be handing them out to people, right? Makes sense. Yes.

He's silent for several more moments before speaking up again.]

Once you're feeling better. We can go? Or we can save it for a-after the next mission...

[ Yuji has said that he's not keeping it a secret, so maybe it's been obvious to other people - that he likes Raidou so much, that maybe they peek at the messages they send one another... It's embarrassing to think about, but he also doesn't mind it that much.

He likes people knowing that they're together. That he belongs, at least in part, to Raidou.

Peeking out over the top of the pillow, so it's just his eyes, he hopes his embarrassment - and shy glee - is hidden away. ]

And a cute cat.

[ Who purrs loudly. ]

We can go whenever you want. I... I want to go with you, Johei. The only one I wanted to go with.

[Raidou peeks back at him from under his hat brim, and is smiling just a little despite his embarrassment. How could he not, when Yuji says something like that.]

I want to go with you, too. It'll be nice.

[As far as Raidou is concerned, Yuji deserves all the relaxation and enjoyment he can get. Anything to help take his mind off of all those terrible feelings that he knows are lurking below the surface. Anything in return for the sacrifices he makes not just here, but back home.

It's taking so much right now for Raidou to not reach out for him.]

Once you're feeling better.

It'll be fun.

[ Two nights together... Yuji isn't thinking about what the doctor implied they'd be doing - he's thinking about sharing dinner with each other, using a bath together, curling up into bed and enjoying the company of someone he cares about for two days of isolated bliss. The other stuff crosses his mind, but not so much that he thinks he'd ever push for it.

That's not what his relationship with Raidou is about. He likes him, for his heart, his strength, his warmth, his smile and his genuine nature, not because he wants to do... That. ]

You can put the other things somewhere else...? It's not - we don't... Nn...

[ Hiding his face again. ]

Can you lie down with me anyway?

[He smiles a little broader now, nodding in agreement. Raidou's never gotten to stay in a place like that before, and getting to share it with Yuji makes it even better.

And it's not that those things don't cross his mind, either. Raidou is, after all, a typical healthy teenager with a boyfriend he's quite smitten with. But that seems a little fast for this shy 1920s kid, who will pluck the condoms from Yuji's hand and, after a moment of hesitation, stashes them under the bed. After that he can lie down on his side, facing Yuji.]

Make sure to bring the camera, okay? If there are cats there.

[ Yuji, at least, has no expectations. He might be a teenager himself, but he's also a half-oblivious one who had to google some of the things that Choso said to him, mortified at it. What they've been doing so far (kissing, idle touching, the gentle exploration of mouths on skin) is more than enough for him.

Raidou lies down and Yuji shifts, wiggling a little closer. The pillow has a more practical use now, and he places it between them before he cuddles himself closer; the bedding is enough to buffer them, so he doesn't have to worry about accidentally touching and getting hurt.

It means he's close enough to Raidou to feel his warmth, and it eases some of the strange, disorientating feeling, eyes closing again to help it pass. ]

I will. My camera, my Johei... I'll be so happy.

Me too.

[He reaches out and touches the pillow where Yuji's heart would be behind it; it'll have to do for now.]

Get some sleep. I won't go anywhere until you're feeling better.

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I’ll sleep. Just for an hour or two.

[ Which might feel like days or seconds, given how wired his head is right now, but… ]

Will you kiss me in the morning? Three times… No! I want four.

[He leans forward, tantalizingly close.]

I'll make it five.

Johei… How am I meant to sleep now?

[ He’s pouting a little, but closing his eyes with a soft sigh. ]

Wake me up, okay? Two hours.

Alright. Two hours. Unless you're still comfortable by then, and I'm forced to join you.

[But, he will set an alarm for two hours and do as he's asked, but for now Raidou, will stay where he is until he's sure Yuji is asleep.]

[ It takes a while for Yuji to fall asleep with the pain and disorientation, but he does eventually. He even manages to wake up before the alarm goes off, lifting a hand to rub at his face, looking around slowly. How long was he…?

Time feels weird right now. He has no idea how long he was out. ]

… Nn, Johei…?

[As nice as it would be to stay there, Raidou didn't want Yuji moving around in his sleep and hurt himself if he touched him again. He's right at his desk reading when Yuji wakes up, and he's over sitting on the edge of the bed in a flash.]

Hey. How're you feeling?

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