[CLOSED] The Golden Ratio

[curingidiocy]

WHO: Dr. Ratio + Aventurine
WHAT: Permanent catch all for Ratio and Aventurine's shenanigans
WHERE: Anywhere and everywhere
WHEN: Various
WARNINGS: Patch 2.2 spoilers abound. Suicidal ideation. Now with NSFW. Other content warnings will be listed in starters

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[curingidiocy]

[ Were it anyone else, were it any moment that could not allow for honesty and vulnerability, Ratio would be more than capable of controlling his reaction. He has never allowed himself to get worked up easily (not true; he does often get worked up about people's stupidity), but with Aventurine, it's different. Easier, somehow, to allow his words to get under his skin. To let them lodge into the flesh of his heart, to mean something real. It's still hard to process sometimes, that there is someone genuinely interested in him, not for his ability to produce solutions to benefit humanity, but for himself.

And so he does not mind this public display of affection, minor and innocuous as it is. No, it's not that he doesn't mind. He's already thought over it at length—were it not for Aventurine's personal comfort, he would be more than happy to be affectionate with the man openly, as one might be with a spouse. Nothing too salacious—just chaste kisses to the cheek, hugs—things he's seen from his attached colleagues.

So he responds by leaning into Aventurine, the smile already present on his face growing wider and warmer. ]

That can wait for the hour before turn of the year. Or is it that you intend to delight me for the entirety of today?

[ Because it isn't about the gift, this holiday. The true intention is to be happy as the new year comes. And he's certain that Aventurine will live up to that expectation if that is his goal.

He picks up on the stutter, of course, but elects not to comment on it. When it comes to Aventurine's past, he has been ever patient, waiting for the man to reveal information on his own accord. This will be no exception. ]

There is no need to worry about failure. Regardless of the result, I am already pleased that you are attempting this for my sake.

[stonehearts]

( Aventurine has never been one for open displays of affection past his childhood, partly because of what is likely the obvious reason of death and slavery, and partly because he has never felt that he could. Oh, he'd put on airs if he needed to with a client he'd decided that wining and dining would get him the best result, but none of it had come from a real desire to be close, to seek the warmth that came with a genuine human connection. He hadn't had something as real, as true, as this with Ratio since his sister died -- and he feels that if he's not careful he'll become addicted to it. Maybe he already is, given what the hurt in his chest had felt like when Veritas had forgotten him.

He should remind himself that he can't do that, to put some distance between the two of them and maybe spend less time around him, to be less intimate and emotionally vulnerable with the other man. But Aventurine doesn't want to, he doesn't see a reason to when the reminder of Ratio, of his friendship and consideration for Aventurine was one of the things that kept him from being washed away in the Nihility. The one thing that makes the nightmares a little easier to bear.

It isn't just because of that that makes Aventurine want to have Ratio by his side for as long as the other man wants to be there. There's no one else in the universe that makes Aventurine grin as much as Ratio does, who tests his wits and his thinking like the good Doctor, and maybe -- if Aventurine can get him to stay -- there's someone out there who looks at him and sees something in the emptiness behind it all. And then, with enough time, Aventurine might look at all that nothingness and find something else in there.

Anyway, he doesn't particularly want to dwell on those things right now. He wants to think about Ratio's smile and his warmth and what he'll look at him like when Aventurine makes him dinner and gives him his gifts. )

You say that now, Doc, but you haven't tasted my attempts at cooking before. But yes, all day delight is absolutely on the table for the holiday.

[curingidiocy]

[ It is a blessing to be able to spend an entire day with Aventurine focused on nothing else but the simple pleasures of life. Be able to bask in each other's company and put aside the weight of responsibility both of them bear.
So many stories and fairy tales focused on love and romance as a key point of appeal, and back then, he could never understand why. Now, though, he gets it. This is what truly matters in life. ]

Then I greatly look forward to the rest of the day's itinerary.

[ He shifts away from Aventurine, but not before gently placing a hand against the smaller man's back and subtly urging him forward. ]

Let's not waste any more time.