Dr. Veritas Ratio (
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[CLOSED] The Golden Ratio
WHO: Dr. Ratio + Aventurine
WHAT: Permanent catch all for Ratio and Aventurine's shenanigans
WHERE: Anywhere and everywhere
WHEN: Various
WARNINGS: Patch 2.2 spoilers abound. Suicidal ideation. Now with NSFW. Other content warnings will be listed in starters
WHAT: Permanent catch all for Ratio and Aventurine's shenanigans
WHERE: Anywhere and everywhere
WHEN: Various
WARNINGS: Patch 2.2 spoilers abound. Suicidal ideation. Now with NSFW. Other content warnings will be listed in starters

Day of Kakava
He stands by the large window in his room, overlooking the city of Shinjuku. The skies are cloudy, slowly darkening as time trickles into the evening. The weather forecast had indicated rain would fall soon. How fitting, he thinks, that it would rain on this day.
They have never spoken about this day; not once. But he has come to expect a certain routine every year: a lack of communication during the day, whether it be through text or voice call, and then his sudden appearance in the evening at the scholar's office (and it never seemed to matter whether he was at the University or the Intelligentsia Guild's headquarters, he always seemed to know), accompanied by the strongest of spirits. Though Ratio is loathe to consume alcohol, and normally makes that clear, this day is always an exception.
He waits patiently. Their environs might have changed, but he does not expect the routine to change. ]
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Not busy enough to ignore the date.
He spends the day as recklessly as he always does; there's no thought of what Ratio might do if he doesn't show up in the evening, because Aventurine always does that, too. Blame the luck gifted to him on this day, years ago.
With the setting sun, Aventurine finds a decent bottle of the strongest stuff he can afford and sets off. It's nothing like he used to get back home, but it's better than what he could get on the meager allowance afforded him by LILITH.
The first drops fall on his head as he approaches the assigned quarters for the team Ratio's been assigned to, and Aventurine can't help but grimace. Rain. Just his luck.
Like always the thought leaves a bitter taste in his mouth.
Finding the good doctor's quarters with ease, Aventurine raps his knuckles on the door in silence -- there's no one else who it could be, on this day, at this hour. )
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[ He does not move from his position, only turning once Aventurine has entered the room and locked the sliding door behind him. His eyes instantly drift to the bottle of alcohol. He hadn't expected anything extravagant, but— ]
It seems unwise to spend so much for a single bottle of alcohol.
[ He gives the gambler a look of consideration. ]
How much have you earned so far?
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Gazing at the Stars in the RV Park
He eventually finds the man outside, distant from the campfire, but not so far that he cannot feel its warmth. He's positioned just so to isolate himself from the other Outsiders who have seen fit to camp out under the stars. Aventurine is laid out on the sand, gazing up at the stars that glitter brightly above them, the skies cloudless. ]
Gambler.
[ It is a greeting. Ratio stops next to the man, standing, observing him for a moment, before sighing and sitting down next to him. He does not say any more, waiting for the other to speak. ]
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His musings are met with a welcome interruption, and Aventurine grins up at the other man. )
Doctor. ( He says nothing for a brief moment before, in a sign of trust -- or perhaps how grateful Aventurine has been for the comfort Ratio has offered him over the past few days -- he continues once the doctor has settled down in the ground next to him. ) It was never this dark unless it rained. There was always something happening in the sky -- I didn't realize night could be so black until I was in my teens.
( Ratio is a smart man who knows enough about the history of Sigonia-IV and its position in the universe to understand what Aventurine is talking about. And what happened to so drastically change his understanding of what a night sky should look like. )
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We don't worship Space Clown Gods in this house
Aeons are incomprehensible beings, soaring far, far above humanity and its petty squabbles. Once, Ratio had yearned for the gaze of one of THEM. Then, he realized THEY cared not for humanity, and stopped wishing for it. Now?
Well, he won't be eager for that chance any time soon.
The nightmare has left him breathless, disoriented and terrified. Ice has frozen his veins, and he is covered in a thin layer of sweat, cold and clammy. He feels ill, yet he can't move. A tremble runs through his body, and he closes his eyes with a distressed furrow of his brows, trying to will his rapidly beating heart to slow down. ]
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It would take a bit, it always does, and he can feel himself nearing sleep when he notices something off. The usually composed doctor isn't anymore, covered in sweat that Aventurine associates with his nights, not Ratio's. Frowning, he debates waking him -- a conundrum lasts until he notices that the other man is, brow furrowed and heart pounding against his chest.
Aventurine has never been the best at offering comfort, but he can try, right? For this man. )
Doc? ( He hazards, and then reaches out to cup one of Ratio's cheeks. ) Veritas? Are you with me?
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Giddy with Love. cw: NSFW
A happy memory... that was easy, when the source of his most recent happy memories stood right next to him. Just a look at the man's face is enough to threaten the stoic expression he preferred to adopt, a giddy feeling rising up within him as he realizes, again, that he has managed to express his affections to the Sigonian properly, and he hadn't run away in fear.
—Wait. Those giddy feelings weren't his. He knows his own emotions well enough to tell that the bubbly emotions welling up in him are reaching levels he doesn't normally experience. And it's causing his face to twitch with the strain of him holding back what would undoubtedly be a goofy smile.
No, he refuses to destroy his own dignity like that in front of everyone.
Biting his lip to control his expression, he turns to separate himself from the group, walking briskly out of the room and towards any empty hallway. He doesn't say anything to Aventurine. The other man could follow him if he so wished. ]
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He's not paying attention to when the fondness bubbling up starts, only when he can feel himself start to crack from the practiced easy smile and grin he wears around everyone. Aeons, he's really sick of not having a choice in how he's being yanked around by this place, but the annoyance is quickly swept away by the giddiness.
It's not the only thing that's swept away, and Aventurine turns just in time to see Ratio retreat out of the room. Well, that's no surprise -- the man is about as comfortable exposing his emotions as Aventurine is when it comes down to it, though the masks they wear are quite different.
(And again, he wonders where Ratio's is -- surely the man would wear it for this?)
But Aventurine doesn't let his doctor go alone, ducking out himself without caring much about who might notice -- and once it's clear that it's just the two of them in the hallway, allows himself to reach for Ratio. )
There you are, Doc. ( He teases, pressing himself close to the other man with the heavy joy that seeps through his limbs and chest. Aventurine knows he has no dignity to speak of, something that Ratio has mentioned on more than one occasion, so he has no issue letting a heartfelt grin spread across his face now that it's just them. ) Is my doctor afraid that someone might see him smile?
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DATE. post-okinawa
Aventurine has picked the most expensive restaurant on the list he'd been given -- the sushi restaurant with the underwater atmosphere, not only because it'd been the one with the highest cost, but because it made him think of the types of restaurants you could find back in their own world, in their own universe. Novel, a bit showy, but an experience. After dinner, a walk through a botanical gardens with flowers that bloom at night and some that are said to glow -- he'd debated on a more private bathing experience, but considering all of his options were hot, that would have to be something to do later.
Which is how he ends up, arm in arm with Ratio, leading him to the restaurant. He's said no details about it, only that he's pleased to be able to treat the man as he's used to doing. )
I had hoped the weather would be better, but I'm sure my suffering in this heat has a point since it hasn't bothered to leave in time for our first date.
( He grins, then, a sharp flash as he looks up at Ratio from behind his sunglasses. )
Perhaps the opportunity to see you in as little clothes as possible, outside of the beach--
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He had envisioned, perhaps, that once they returned home their lives would go about much the same. Adventurine off to whichever planet the IPC sent him to, with him accompanying as a colleague whenever their bosses deemed his services needed. Perhaps he had envisioned their regular banter, still the same but infused with a mutual understanding of affection and care. The dinners, too, he envisioned still happening, but that's all they would be. Just dinner, food shared with the best company he could hope for.
A date, on the other hand, belongs in the realm of—well, the ordinary person, who formed close associations with others, searched for romantic partners, and did grand gestures to win their love. He understood the intent of a date, yes, but—it just never crossed his mind that he would ever go on one. Because he wasn't just an ordinary person. ]
Yet I am merely wearing my usual attire, aside from outermost layer.
[ The look Ratio gives Aventurine is his typical unimpressed expression, but it is softened by a fond exasperation originating from his deep affection for the gambler. ]
If you had given me forewarning, I would have prepared a more suitable outfit for today.
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THE FUCKENING. post-date. nsfw.
Which means he wants, desperately and achingly, for more than just kisses and heavy petting. He wants to feel Ratio's skin against his, to tangle his fingers in the other man's hair and never let go. Which is why, when they get to the door, Aventurine wraps his arms around Veritas' neck, dragging him in without preamble and kissing him until he can't anymore, if the doctor allows. )
I don't think I'm ready for this evening to be over yet.
( He says, attempting coyness but only halfheartedly. After all, he has Ratio right where he wants him already -- in his arms. )
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The heat, however, had been stifling. It was easy to ignore when his focus was wholly on the man beside him, but as time ticked on, the sensation of sweat coating his entire body began to bother him more and more. He wanted nothing more than to take a shower upon returning to base, but of course the gambler had other plans, didn't he?
He indulges Aventurine for only a few seconds before he pulls away and frowns with a wrinkle in his nose. A hand reaches up to try and gently pry the shorter man off him. ]
Unhand me, Aventurine. We are both filthy. I will not proceed without a shower.
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The Aftermath of the Decision
Aventurine is not among those who attempted to message him.
Ratio doesn't think much of it initially, mind far too occupied by his inner turmoil and an intense drive to work, as if somehow it'd make up for his failures and the loss of life in Seoul. But he knows nothing can truly make up for a loss on that scale. Nothing can replace a single extinguished life, because all life is precious and must be cherished. It's why he has to work so hard, in hopes that he might be able to save the ones that still live.
Thankfully, he's knocked out of his emotion-borne recklessness pretty quickly by a few choice conversations with the few that sought him out, either to force him to reflect upon himself, or to redirect his mind back to the path of logic and rationality. And it's only once he's finally calmed himself that his mind turns to his partner.
Oh, how he craves Aventurine's presence right now. What he wouldn't give to sink into the other man's embrace and let loose the tightly wound emotions that still threaten to burst out of his chest. Those emotions need an outlet for release, and perhaps the only person he could trust with such vulnerability is Aventurine, though he had initially been against the idea. He didn't want to add to the burdens he was already carrying, but he has no other choice.
He should ask, at the bare minimum.
So it is without fanfare that the door to their shared room opens to present Ratio soon after their usual dinner time. His eyes are searching, and when they land on the gambler, relief visibly crosses his face and he steps into the room, allowing the door to close behind him. ]
Aventurine.
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Except he doesn't come.
Aventurine spends more time than he'd like to admit to tossing and turning, switching from staring out at an ocean lit by a moon and the door, waiting for Ratio to get back. Sleep creeps up on him unexpectedly, and doesn't last long before Aventurine is waking up in a cold sweat, choking back a scream. He turns to the side, reaching for Ratio --- only to find no one there.
Oh.
Aventurine pulls himself together enough to busy himself with late night entertainment in Neo-Tokyo; gambling, charming the waitresses and hosts of the bars that are still open. It's enough to keep him up until the sun rises, and when Aventurine returns to LILITH for breakfast he keeps an eye peeled for the other man. And doesn't find him.
Right. He's probably off doing something, Aventurine reasons. He'll come back. And when night comes again and he hasn't seen hide nor hair of the good doctor, it's getting harder to reassure himself.
And even harder when he jerks awake again, though this time he doesn't have to look or reach for Ratio to know he's not there. He's alone again. And it shouldn't be so hard to go back to being alone -- Aventurine is used to it, it's what he's always been, hasn't it? Just because there was a brief moment where Ratio would be there for him doesn't mean he should have come to rely on him.
Aventurine is made of sterner stuff than that. A chiseled stone, made out of the force of his will alone.
But the voices come creeping in anyway, reminding him that he's failed. Ratio has left him to suffer the nightmares alone because Aventurine was never good enough for him, and he realized it. Got out while the getting was good, and Aventurine can't even blame him for it. Why would he? Aventurine would do the same if he were in Ratio's position. Should he see Ratio he'll... well. He doesn't know what he'll do, just as he had no plan, no thought of what he'd do if he saw Ratio again after his 'death'. Take it as it comes has always worked out for him so far, and perhaps the edge of it, the tightness in his chest and the lack of breath will give him that thrill he wants.
Until then, though, Aventurine is not going to take another night lying down. He's just finishing the touches on his usual flashy gambler's outfit when the door opens, tugging at the collar in preparation to go and chase that high he needs, the pain and the threat of loss--
Oh.
Aventurine's eyes go wide for a quick second, darting over Ratio's face before the mask that is Aventurine comes slamming down and he offers the other man a smile, his face aching with the effort the false smile takes. He really has become complacent, hasn't he? )
Ah, there you are, Doctor. Don't worry, I'll be out of your hair for the evening soon enough.
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Wehh
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The Second Date, some time late Sept.
Life has a funny way of coming at someone though, and now he was here, with Aventurine as his lover, and hopefully, lifelong partner. One he'd treated poorly because of his own inability to adjust to his circumstances, however. Though he'd already apologize for his error, it wasn't enough. Not for him, anyway. Aventurine seemed satisfied, but it didn't settle right with the scholar.
Which brought them to today. Today was their second date, planned by Ratio himself. Their room might have been destroyed, and his own capabilities shackled, but it wasn't going to stop him from making it happen. It was part apology, but mostly a way to show his gratitude and appreciation for the gambler. He went all out—an afternoon exploring Neo Tokyo's shopping district and shrines, a fantastic dinner at the most expensive teppanyaki restaurant he could reserve a spot at, followed by a peaceful evening walk along the shores of Emerald Beach.
Originally, he'd wanted to present the bouquet he'd had Ereshkigal make during the beachside walk. It would have been a simple matter to conceal it within his subspace storage. But with his powers restricted, he could no longer do that. So he'd retrieved the bouquet and presented it to his lover on base, then left it in the vase he'd prepared in the lab beforehand.
Now, as the sun was setting to the west, painting the beach in vibrant, warm pinks and reds, Ratio wondered if this would be the most appropriate time to present his final surprise for the day. He glanced over to the shorter man who was walking beside him, hand intertwined with his between them. ]
Have you enjoyed today, my dear gambler?
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And, in his heart of hearts, Aventurine enjoys being gifted things just because Ratio thinks he might like them, or put thought behind them into what Aventurine might truly like. It makes him feel... a little more real. A little more like a person, who has desires and wants and things that matter to him instead of just things that showcase his wealth and power. The flowers -- he could tell thought and effort were put into picking which ones, and didn't want to let it wilt before he could truly enjoy it. The restaurants, even the walk on the beach-- it really is nice to have this with Ratio.
Everything he didn't think he could have. Didn't think Ratio would want.
His hand squeezes Ratio's at the question, leaning in to bump his head against the other man's shoulder. )
I think it's the best date I've been on yet, Doc.
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Much Needed Comfort
Despite his words, it pains Ratio to consider Godzilla a true enemy. He'd witnessed the intelligence nestled in the kaiju's brain. He knows there's more to the titan than this. Whatever happened in the last few months has changed him, somehow, but he doesn't know why. He wants to help Godzilla, before it's too late.
If it isn't already too late.
But right now, Aventurine is, unfortunately, correct in saying that they need to plan against Godzilla in the worst case scenario. Already, his mind is racing with ideas to turn the others against Godzilla, ensure that he cannot accumulate allies, perhaps force LILITH to send him away— ]
What—!?
[ —and winds up caught off guard when Aventurine sweeps him off his feet. Immediately, his cheeks flush in embarrassment and he feebly pushes at Aventurine's shoulders. ]
Gambler! Unhand me right now! This is no time for a nap! There are matters I must attend to! Gambler, listen to me!!
[ He's silenced when his protests only get the Stoneheart to tighten his grip and hold him closer, further restricting his movements to futile squirming. He stops resisting soon enough, and instead turns to bury his face into Aventurine's chest, as if to avoid everyone else gazing upon him in such an undignified position. His ears are bright red and he does not reply to Ereshkigal when she bids them farewell. ]
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Once they're closer to Ratio's room, he lifts the doctor up enough to press his face against the side of Ratio's, the smooth mask cold to the touch, and even a whispered voice still having some amount of unnatural reverberation. )
I'm listening now, Doc. And all I can see is a man who needs to rest.
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To a New Year
That, and he hadn't anyone to indulge in the festive atmosphere with anyway.
He hadn't expected to receive anything from anyone this year, having long dissuaded colleagues back home from such inclinations, so when piles of presents suddenly showed up a week before the changing of years on this planet's calendar, he had been bewildered. To receive them, but more importantly, the timing. Of course, a quick search on the net rectified his concerns.
But with the presents brought an unfortunate conundrum. At home, he had clearly announced his intention to abstain from the gift giving. Anyone who expected him to reciprocate afterwards was a fool. But here? He had made no such proclamation, and courtesy dictates he must gift them back. How vexing.
As rude as he may choose to be at times, he is not discourteous. So it is with the energy of a man used to completing his duties to utmost perfection that he assembles together packages for those who gifted him and prepares them to be sent out before the turn of the year.
And with all the effort in gifts comes another thought: what of Aventurine? He is not a festive person, but surely... Perhaps just this one time, he should indulge. So Aventurine could have something warm and sweet to remember in the years to come.
Which means... a present must be prepared. Luckily, the scholar had been in the middle of creating a little something for his partner. Just a few little tweaks were needed to better suit the occasion, and he had a gift he was certain Aventurine would love immensely.
It was a tight schedule though, in between his regular work, gathering gifts for others and spending more time than he ever had before on leisure with Aventurine. On New Year's Eve, he leaves his room early in the morning to put the finishing touches on his gift. He'd promised Aventurine that he would be done by noon, and worked diligently to fulfill that promise.
Now, with the gift ready, Ratio stepped out of his lab to seek the company of his beloved for the rest of the year. ]
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For now he's just waiting for Ratio outside of his lab/his former room, pushing himself off the wall when he sees Ratio leave. The fact that his entire face brightens when he does so is... not important, and also not something Aventurine is particularly aware of at the moment. )
There he is! The dear doctor himself.
( Aventurine says, leaning in and raising himself onto his toes to press a kiss at the corner of Ratio's mouth in greeting. )
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A Night of Fun, sometime mid-July, NSFW
Well, clearly that was changing, given how quickly his mind went to the gutter with the barest of suggestive wording.
But while his libido might be returning, could the same be said of Aventurine? Their relationship, while not necessarily strained, had been going through some small bumps due to Ratio's own incompetence in navigating emotions and relationships. He wanted to show Aventurine that he still loves and adores him so very much.
So after a day of contemplation and more than a few plans put together, Ratio returns back to base far earlier than usual. By 7PM, a whole two hours earlier than he'd usually return, he'd already consumed dinner and thoroughly bathed himself in anticipation for what would hopefully be a night to rekindle their bond and mutual affection for each other.
He sat on their new bed in his now spacious suite, triple checking his preparations (and also tempering his expectations, Aventurine could always say no) before he finally uses the ocular implant to send a text to his beloved. ]
I've returned early.
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But the text comes when Aventurine is out, not expecting Ratio back so soon. It brings a smile to his face -- he makes his goodbyes and excuses, texting his dear doctor as he makes his way back back to base. )
On my way back now. What's the special occasion, Doc?
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Oh yeah, sex pollen baby. NSFW
Yet his luck must have run dry, because all that precaution was swiftly undone by a chain reaction of events starting from the scholar dodging a pitcher plant's attempt to trip him, which in turn caused him to startle other animals, and so on and so forth culminating in his helmet being knocked slightly askew as he received a face full of pollen. Truly, none of any of the events could be attributed to his mistake, yet he still ended up being exposed to Rift energy.
Fearing the worst, he'd immediately turned around and returned back to base to get himself cleaned up and checked with medical. They'd given him a clean bill of health, citing that the only effect he should be dealing with is an increased appetite and irritability, which could escalate to violence if he wasn't careful.
Okay, he could certainly minimize human contact until the effects wore off. Which is how he found himself in his assigned room feeling increasingly restless and aching for some sort of release.
No, absolutely not. Not while they were on a mission. ]
let's FUCKING GOOO
Oh. Oh.
Aventurine's eyes widen, and then a smile spreads across his face. So that's what's got bees in the man's bonnet, huh. And if he's gone into hiding in the base, well.
Aventurine might just be able to help with that.
Which is why, when he palms open the door to their room, he decides on leaning against the wall -- looking rakishly good looking, if he does say so himself. Handsome, capable of ravishing and being ravished, depending on what Ratio is feeling. )
Hello there, Doctor.
( He offers, in what can only be described as a purr. )
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