[OPEN] I fight the fever alone

[bemist]

WHO: Gebura and you!
WHAT: June catch-all! Maybe longer! It's a mystery!
WHERE: All around
WHEN: June 2024
WARNINGS: Graphic descriptions of violence, dismemberment, murder, gore and death. Also spoilers for Lobotomy Corporation and Library of Ruina!



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this is why I want to apologize!!

[bemist]

Not so much these days, but back in my first life, when I started wielding it... it would ask for a shell. And it would ask me if I didn't desire a human shell, as well.

... Having it talk to me without trying to convince me or sway me still tampered with my thoughts, made me call my own thinking into question. But eventually, I figured out what I actually wanted to do and that's when I became stronger.

[ She glances down at the blade. ]

Now it's just... quiet noises.

never apologize :pleading:

[yuwon]

[ a human shell? he wonders if that was a metaphor, or if it was as gruesome as it sounded on paper. but, he supposes it didn’t matter either way, it’s clear they weren’t words in goodwill. ]

What you actually wanted to do…? [ yuwon may look a bit surprised, if just because he didn’t necessarily expect such a conclusion from the story of her sword. ] I see. Are you still doing what you wanted?

[ this might have been a difficult question considering where they’re presently at, but he wants to ask, anyway. perhaps, it’s curiosity that could stem from having seen into a part of her past. ]

[bemist]

[ Well. About that... ]

Not exactly. [ And because he'd seen it-- ]

There was someone I needed to protect. But in the end, I couldn't protect her from her own sense of guilt.

[yuwon]

Protect her from her own sense of guilt?

[ there's a brief hum of consideration. he supposes guilt is as much a natural inclination of people as any other emotion or sentiment. perhaps, stronger if just because he hasn't known anyone to easily find reprieve from it, no matter how resilient they were on paper. yet, he does still continue to ask: ]

Is it too late? [ technically, couldn't people spend their entire lives working up to the day where they could forgive themselves?

not that he thinks it's this easy, but he did have a natural habit of trivializing things. ]

[bemist]

[ Gebura exhales, a little heavily, though her expression doesn't flicker all that much. It's been a long time since then, after all. ]

Yes. It's far too late.

[ One can't undo death, after all. Not always. Not the way Ayin had for the ones he'd needed for his plan. ]

[yuwon]

[ he looks down momentarily, as if taking in the gravity of her words, before his gaze turns back towards her. ]

Is there nothing else you want? [ currently, or after all of that? ]

[bemist]

Not anything I'd be up to discussing right now.

[ So, like. Sorry we can't bond over our wishes and desires, Yuwon. ]

[yuwon]

Can't argue with that. [ yuwon isn't offended in the least.

he isn't about to pry if she doesn't want to talk. after all, they probably still have more work to do here. though, they've been making relatively quick work so far. perhaps, rendezvousing at the worm isn't impossible. ] Should we move onto the next of them?

[ they can bond over cleaning up these affected worm-people instead. ]