WHO: Yuji Itadori & various ( closed and open prompts ) WHAT: Yuji has Canon Updated. It isn't going well. WHERE: Across the base WHEN: March 21 onwards WARNINGS: Jujutsu Kaisen spoilers up to chapter 248.
I made a Vow with him and forgot, so he was able to take control and change vessel. That’s why… [ He lifts his hands to his face to touch gently; the small scars where Sukuna’s other eyes used to be are gone now. Yuji has different scars, but those ones? Ripped away because of his own idiocy. Because he didn’t count himself as important enough to protect.
What Yuji wants is to curl into Raidou and not let go, to wrap around him and seek out comfort and warmth. There are some things he might be comfortable saying - the loss of his adult companions, who the new Vessel was, all of it - but he can share a little.
He trusts Raidou and knows that his secrets will be safe.
Shaking his head, he presses into that gentle hand, not realising his own are shaking. ]
It was a few months. I don’t know how many, it was all a… Blur.
[So much time, but only a day here. Raidou squeezes that shaking hand to help steady it.
No, that's enough explanation for now. He can get details later when Yuji isn't such a wreck. Raidou hates to see him only getting more shakey and worn down.
With his other hand, he brings Yuji's head to his chest again, and leans back so they're laying back. He will stay here like this for as long as Yuji needs it.]
That's enough, for now. Just... rest. You need it. You deserve it.
[ Yuji sinks into him, letting his weight spread, his muscles relax, calming a little. It feels better, to curl close and press into him, to feel the strength of his partner's body and the warmth of him - he's back, he's with the person he likes so much, adores so deeply, and he doesn't want to let go of it.
His hands are coated in more blood, but Johei... He'd listen. He'd take care of him.
Yuji wants to believe that. ]
Will you stay? I don't want to let go. I'm afraid...
[Raidou gently rubs his back, and places a gentle kiss on Yuji's head before settling snack to get more comfortable.]
I'm not going anywhere.
[The fact that Yuji seems to be relaxing is a relief to Raidou too, no matter how little it might be. Anything is a start. He won't let go of that hand, not until it stops shaking, holding it tightly, securely. If he disappears again, Raidou is going with him.]
[ The kiss is comforting. Despite his losses and sadness, Yuji still has this. Raidou still wants to give him that affection, and it carries him through some of this storm, curling around him and nuzzling close. It’s the same kind of sweetness they hard before, edged with bitterness like dark chocolate. ]
Good. I don’t want to lose you too.
[ When will it get to the point where he’s lost too much? ]
You won't. If they insist on taking you again, then I'm coming too.
[Maybe that sounds absurd, but he means it. He's glad that he can be of any relief to Yuji, feeling even just a slight bit of that tension lessening is a relief to Raidou as well. He can't even imagine what he really went through to leave him in this state, but he knows for sure that he will do everything in his power to make sure Yuji won't go through this again. Not if he has anything to do with it. He'll do anything to preserve whatever left of that sweet, outgoing boy he knows is still in there.]
[ As if Yuji's going to risk Raidou coming back with him and having to face Sukuna... Would he have any of his companions, those powers that are missing here? Even if he did, Yuji wouldn't want him to have to deal with that. He's already taken enough hits from Sukuna that he ought to have died a handful of times, so the idea of Raidou dealing with that...
Shaking his head, he squeezes him, breathing out sharply. ]
[Said softly, with a smile. It feels so nice to be needed, though he wishes it were under different circumstances for Yuji. He squeezes him back, holding him close, and will let Yuji stay there as long as he wants.]
[ Yuji sighs softly, nuzzling into Raidou, not able to help himself. He’s just so… He doesn’t know how he deserves this. With everything he’s done… It makes him feel too much. One hand shifts, to stroke against Raidou gently, finding comfort in it. ]
I’d say you could come after, but I don’t know if I’ll win. So I’ll find you instead.
[Raidou would love nothing more than to rescue Yuji from his situation for good, he knows that Yuji would also never abandon those still in it. Besides, even if somehow he could come with him to the Capital, was that place any better with how he had left it?
Someday, he may get up the nerve to talk about that all with Yuji. It's heartening to know, though, that despite his current state, that Yuji can find such sweet things to say. He hand gently moving against him is enough to keep those uncertain thoughts at bay for now. Yuji is here with him right now, which is what's the most important.]
I believe you would. But we can worry about that later, right? We're here now. Neo Tokyo has trouble but... together, we can handle it.
[ Yuji finds himself relaxing, sinking, some of the fuzzy static in his mind fading away into peace as he lets himself relax. With Raidou's arms around him, he feels protected - and even if he knows he can take care of himself there's something special in knowing that he doesn't have to. Not right now.
Raidou - his Raidou, the person he calls Johei because he asked, because he wants to, who is so close to holding Yuji's fragile heart in his hands and risk crushing it if he isn't careful - is here. He hasn't lost him.
Closing his eyes a little tighter, he nods. ]
At least you don't have to worry about me so much on the next mission, since I can heal myself now.
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What Yuji wants is to curl into Raidou and not let go, to wrap around him and seek out comfort and warmth. There are some things he might be comfortable saying - the loss of his adult companions, who the new Vessel was, all of it - but he can share a little.
He trusts Raidou and knows that his secrets will be safe.
Shaking his head, he presses into that gentle hand, not realising his own are shaking. ]
It was a few months. I don’t know how many, it was all a… Blur.
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[So much time, but only a day here. Raidou squeezes that shaking hand to help steady it.
No, that's enough explanation for now. He can get details later when Yuji isn't such a wreck. Raidou hates to see him only getting more shakey and worn down.
With his other hand, he brings Yuji's head to his chest again, and leans back so they're laying back. He will stay here like this for as long as Yuji needs it.]
That's enough, for now. Just... rest. You need it. You deserve it.
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[ Yuji sinks into him, letting his weight spread, his muscles relax, calming a little. It feels better, to curl close and press into him, to feel the strength of his partner's body and the warmth of him - he's back, he's with the person he likes so much, adores so deeply, and he doesn't want to let go of it.
His hands are coated in more blood, but Johei... He'd listen. He'd take care of him.
Yuji wants to believe that. ]
Will you stay? I don't want to let go. I'm afraid...
[ If he sleeps, more months will go by. ]
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I'm not going anywhere.
[The fact that Yuji seems to be relaxing is a relief to Raidou too, no matter how little it might be. Anything is a start. He won't let go of that hand, not until it stops shaking, holding it tightly, securely. If he disappears again, Raidou is going with him.]
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Good. I don’t want to lose you too.
[ When will it get to the point where he’s lost too much? ]
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[Maybe that sounds absurd, but he means it. He's glad that he can be of any relief to Yuji, feeling even just a slight bit of that tension lessening is a relief to Raidou as well. He can't even imagine what he really went through to leave him in this state, but he knows for sure that he will do everything in his power to make sure Yuji won't go through this again. Not if he has anything to do with it. He'll do anything to preserve whatever left of that sweet, outgoing boy he knows is still in there.]
Whatever you need... you tell me.
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[ As if Yuji's going to risk Raidou coming back with him and having to face Sukuna... Would he have any of his companions, those powers that are missing here? Even if he did, Yuji wouldn't want him to have to deal with that. He's already taken enough hits from Sukuna that he ought to have died a handful of times, so the idea of Raidou dealing with that...
Shaking his head, he squeezes him, breathing out sharply. ]
I just need you to stay with me.
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[Said softly, with a smile. It feels so nice to be needed, though he wishes it were under different circumstances for Yuji. He squeezes him back, holding him close, and will let Yuji stay there as long as he wants.]
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[ Yuji sighs softly, nuzzling into Raidou, not able to help himself. He’s just so… He doesn’t know how he deserves this. With everything he’s done… It makes him feel too much. One hand shifts, to stroke against Raidou gently, finding comfort in it. ]
I’d say you could come after, but I don’t know if I’ll win. So I’ll find you instead.
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Someday, he may get up the nerve to talk about that all with Yuji. It's heartening to know, though, that despite his current state, that Yuji can find such sweet things to say.
He hand gently moving against him is enough to keep those uncertain thoughts at bay for now. Yuji is here with him right now, which is what's the most important.]
I believe you would. But we can worry about that later, right? We're here now. Neo Tokyo has trouble but... together, we can handle it.
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[ Yuji finds himself relaxing, sinking, some of the fuzzy static in his mind fading away into peace as he lets himself relax. With Raidou's arms around him, he feels protected - and even if he knows he can take care of himself there's something special in knowing that he doesn't have to. Not right now.
Raidou - his Raidou, the person he calls Johei because he asked, because he wants to, who is so close to holding Yuji's fragile heart in his hands and risk crushing it if he isn't careful - is here. He hasn't lost him.
Closing his eyes a little tighter, he nods. ]
At least you don't have to worry about me so much on the next mission, since I can heal myself now.