WHO: Yuji Itadori & various ( closed and open prompts ) WHAT: Yuji has Canon Updated. It isn't going well. WHERE: Across the base WHEN: March 21 onwards WARNINGS: Jujutsu Kaisen spoilers up to chapter 248.
[ Yuji, for all that he is good at hiding the depth of his loss and sadness, clearly isn't that good at hiding his jealousy or frustration, and he blinks as he turns back over to Raidou.
He's so close now... He blushes a little, trying to smile - it comes out a little awkward. ]
[ The smile gets him, the promise gets him, and something wells up inside of Yuji.
He's been alone for a while. The list of people he's lost keeps growing (Junpei, Nanamin, Kugisaki, Gojo-sensei, Higuruma-san, Megumi) but he doesn't want to stop making those connections, making those friends, die surrounded by people, don't die alone -
Reaching out, his arms wrap around Raidou as he almost falls into him, enough that if they're not careful they'll end up on the floor, something like tears prickling at his eyes as he sniffles.
Yuji thinks of himself as a monster, a cog in a machine, something to play a role in the world. Maybe this should solidify that for him, but instead... He feels special. Wanted. His face presses into Raidou, forehead against his jaw as he tries to squeeze, forgetting about his strength briefly. ]
[Raidou's not expecting such a reaction, and just barely manages to catch Yuji as he falls onto him. That something so usual to Raidou could mean so much to Yuji... It was a little overwhelming to him too.
Raidou gently wraps his arms around Yuji, hand on the back of his head, comfortingly. Don't worry about squeezing him. Raidou's stronger than he looks. Yuji can hear the warmth, the smile on his voice.]
Yeah. I want to too. I just didn't want to make you a promise I wasn't sure I could keep.
[Maybe this really is the way he's meant to help here after all.]
[ It's normal and usual for Raidou, but for Yuji... There's a meaning to it that he can't parse, that he can't express, flickering through him and making him feel warm inside out.
Knowing that Raidou is smiling for him, because of him, makes him blink back his tears, even if one slips out. The last week has been so fought, so deeply emotional that he can't keep himself under wraps, can't stop himself from leaning in and nuzzling into his boyfriend, tilting his head up to kiss him so, so tenderly. ]
We can try. That's good enough for me.
[ A breathless, happy little laugh follows. ]
We're together. We're going to be together.
[ He leans in for another kiss, a little harder, losing himself to it briefly; at the same time his hand seeks Raidou's, to where the ring is, linking their fingers and squeezing. ]
[Raidou has no words for him, nothing but fond looks between kisses, and wiping that tear away with a thumb across his cheek. What must it be like to have tears that come so easily?
He too is lost for a moment, forgetting where they are, what the outside world was up to; how could he think of those things when Yuji kisses him so strongly, so full of need? Who wouldn't want to get lost in such a feeling?
Raidou deepens the kiss, wanting more, leaning back and pulling Yuji closer with him. The temptation to push away from the table, down to the tatami floor is so tempting, the thought making him hold Yuji's hand tighter.]
[ It's impossible not to fall into it, to the need - the urge - to show Raidou how strangely important this moment is to him, how much it fills his heart with a happiness and a glee that floods him and makes him feel alive. The last few weeks (at home, flickered back by the whims of LILITH) had been so lonely, so isolating, burning with a sadness that's inescapable, but this...
This makes him feel better. He feels whole, and human, and cherished, and he feels the utter joy of knowing that Raidou likes him as much as he does in return.
Following where his boyfriend leads, he slides into his space, wraps around him, following the movement of their bodies as he lets himself deepen the kiss. His fingers squeeze, his other arm wrapping around him as best as he can, deepening the kiss and chasing the feeling.
Yuji wants to memorise this: the way Raidou feels against him, the sharpness of their kisses, the heat of his blush on his cheeks as he chases it. ]
[Raidou's emotions are running as hot as they probably ever have in his life, and on a day when they've gone from the lowest to the highest he's quite possibly ever experienced. Chasing this feeling is hard to stop, especially after knowing the grief and anguish deep with in Yuji - within them both. Was it so wrong to give into this, even just for a little bit?
Temptation wins out. Raidou hesitantly unlinks their hands, so he can use his to grab the front of Yuji's onsen robe and pull him back with him to the floor. He refuses to let the kiss break, only finally stop long enough moments later to catch his breath, looking up at Yuji wide-eyed as he does. He can't believe he did that.
What if that was too far? He doesn't regret it, but... those 1920s sensibilities sometimes rear their ugly head.
He has no words. Why can't he ever think of what to say, even when he really wants to speak? Raidou only looks up at Yuji, breathless and heart pounding. He takes a hand to cup his cheek, thumb lightly tracing along the scar that runs down his face.]
[ Yuji lets himself sink down into the kiss immediately, no hesitation, leaning down onto the floor with Raidou. He kisses him and kisses him, letting their bodies slot together as he tilts his head, lifting his hand to touch his cheek and hold him there. It's wonderful, it's perfect, and he can't help but want more and more of it, to be utterly consumed by the simple joy of kissing someone he cares this much about.
It's hard to resist temptation, to stop himself from continuing to kiss him, because they haven't broached this, have they? They've confirmed they're boyfriends, have matching rings, but moving forward... Is this the kind of thing that merits a discussion? That he should say he's okay with? Should he be the one reaching out to say that he doesn't mind, that he wants, yearning for this connection that's wrapping around him and making him feel soft?
Raidou leans back and Yuji shifts, their faces still close, and he licks his lips. Head tilting into Raidou's touch, he smiles. ]
Hey. [ Turning his head, he presses a soft, gently kiss against his palm. ] Is... Are you okay... With this?
[It always happens so fast, doesn't it. It feels like Raidou needed a moment to bring his soul back to his body, and to check that Yuji was the one who was okay with this. He's not even sure, after seeing how truly happy Yuji seems in the moment, how he could have questioned it in the first place.
His other hand moves to Yuji's upper back, fingers splayed and holding him there closely.]
Yes.
[He leans in to kiss him softly on the lips, then along his jawline, nuzzling him there momentarily.]
[ Gazing at him with wide, open eyes, Yuji's happiness and affection is obvious as he watches and waits. The last thing he wants to do, after all, is push too far, to break down barriers that he shouldn't be touching, even if he yearns. He's never been this close to anyone before, but the idea of letting Raidou slip out of his fingers now is impossible.
Each soft touch feels like a gift, the most wonderful thing he's ever been given, and he sighs softly as he nudges their noses together, soft and sweet. ]
Yeah... It's the same for me. I want to kiss you all the time. Constantly.
[ It's pretty obvious, considering how often he does it without thinking, how much he reaches for Raidou, body acting on instinct before his mind catches up. ]
You're the only person I've ever kissed like this. The only person I want to...
[ Sliding close again, into the personal space that he's claiming as his own, Yuji kisses him again, one hand resting on his cheek to cup it gently, the other sinking to grab at his robe tight, as if afraid he might disappear. ]
[It was a foregone conclusion in his young life as a summoner that he'd never get to experience anything like this. That he could get dragged to this strange place and find someone like Yuji still seems so surreal to him. There will always be that background anxiety that at any moment, either of them could be gone from here. It's happened with several others Raidou knows; it even happened to Yuji, even though they managed to bring him back.
It hasn't even been that long, but he can't imagine being here without him now.]
You're the only one I want.
[Words spoken breathlessly before they're kissing again, the hand on Yuji's back gripping just as tightly as Yuji to him.]
For all that Raidou was a summoner - meant to be distant, apart from things - Yuji had been scarred from loss. Broken, beaten down from the people taken from him, filling him with fear and horror that could not be forgotten, but it hasn't broken him completely. He still wants, he still yearns, and when he has Raidou in his arms he feels filled, the joy and affection bursting inside of him like fireworks.
They hold on to each other as the fear of letting go makes them ache - Yuji understands. He gets it. He knows.
Sinking into Raidou, he hums softly against his mouth. ]
Then I guess you're mine. My Johei...
[ Eyes still lidded, it's easy to go back to the kiss, to press, to deepen it as much as he's allowed, memorising the moment and holding it close to his heart. ]
[Raidou lets him press on further, the hand on his back clutching so hard, wanting this to go on, a quiet noise of want escaping him. The other hand even manages to slide down Yuji's neck, over his shoulder, robe being pushed aside-- but some footsteps walking past in the hallway remind him of where they are, that any second the door could be knocked on.
The passerby doesn't stop, but Raidou does, watching to be sure, huffing lightly in annoyance as he catches his breath again. When his eyes go back to Yuji, the annoyance is already long gone. He leans forward to whisper.]
My Yuji.
[A gentle kiss, ending it with the ever-so-slightest nip of his lower lip. A tease. A preview. He gingerly pulls Yuji's robe back up his shoulder as well.]
[ He doesn't even notice the sound of someone moving until Raidou stops and leans, and then he realises - remembers - where they are, his eyes widening. If someone had walked in then it would've been pretty embarrassing, but it wouldn't be the end of the world for Yuji. For Raidou, though... Yeah, he can picture his boyfriend being utterly mortified to the point of maybe wanting to leave right away, so he shifts back.
It doesn't mean he doesn't want more, but... He can wait until they're somewhere a little more appropriate. The idea of being able to curl up with Raidou again, to layer him with more kisses, to touch him and cup his face with more privacy makes him giddy, and he huffs a little laugh. ]
Yeah. I'm yours.
[ Licking his lips, he hesitates, almost stealing another kiss before he takes Raidou's hand, pressing it to his fingers and knuckle, sliding back into his seat and adjusting his robe casually, as if he wasn't just basically on top of his boyfriend making out with him. ]
[ Best date ever. Amazing. Yuji works his way through the meal, passing Raidou little bites as he goes, without thinking too much about it. He's just happy to be here, cuddling close. ]
[Oh. He'd almost forgotten, what with all the... well, you know.]
Definitely. I don't think I realized how badly I needed that.
[The LILITH medics were pretty worried about him. Still are, really. They have him checking in after all those electric shocks to make sure nothing else has gone wrong, and an extra lecture or two about about restraint. It's a good thing those healing nanobots came back online.]
I think it's now mandatory to make a visit after missions, don't you?
[ It's impossible not to lean in and shove his face in any part of Raidou he can reach, squeezing him gently, tenderly, wanting to layer him with kiss after kiss all over again.
How is he meant to act all normal after something that romantic and tender?
Nuzzling into him, Yuji huffs a soft noise. ]
I'll come too. Whenever you need me.
[ A small smile, turning his hand to squeeze them together. ]
I'm going to steal you away to your room right now if you're not careful, Johei.
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He's so close now... He blushes a little, trying to smile - it comes out a little awkward. ]
You - huh? Wha?
[ Was he that transparent... ]
... A pact? Me and you?
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As I said, there is no loss in trying.
[He stays close, smiling. Don't be envious, you silly boy.]
Think about it, hmm?
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He's been alone for a while. The list of people he's lost keeps growing (Junpei, Nanamin, Kugisaki, Gojo-sensei, Higuruma-san, Megumi) but he doesn't want to stop making those connections, making those friends, die surrounded by people, don't die alone -
Reaching out, his arms wrap around Raidou as he almost falls into him, enough that if they're not careful they'll end up on the floor, something like tears prickling at his eyes as he sniffles.
Yuji thinks of himself as a monster, a cog in a machine, something to play a role in the world. Maybe this should solidify that for him, but instead... He feels special. Wanted. His face presses into Raidou, forehead against his jaw as he tries to squeeze, forgetting about his strength briefly. ]
I want to.
[ A sniffle. ]
I want to make a pact with you, Johei.
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Raidou gently wraps his arms around Yuji, hand on the back of his head, comfortingly. Don't worry about squeezing him. Raidou's stronger than he looks. Yuji can hear the warmth, the smile on his voice.]
Yeah. I want to too. I just didn't want to make you a promise I wasn't sure I could keep.
[Maybe this really is the way he's meant to help here after all.]
But we're in this together. Right?
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Knowing that Raidou is smiling for him, because of him, makes him blink back his tears, even if one slips out. The last week has been so fought, so deeply emotional that he can't keep himself under wraps, can't stop himself from leaning in and nuzzling into his boyfriend, tilting his head up to kiss him so, so tenderly. ]
We can try. That's good enough for me.
[ A breathless, happy little laugh follows. ]
We're together. We're going to be together.
[ He leans in for another kiss, a little harder, losing himself to it briefly; at the same time his hand seeks Raidou's, to where the ring is, linking their fingers and squeezing. ]
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He too is lost for a moment, forgetting where they are, what the outside world was up to; how could he think of those things when Yuji kisses him so strongly, so full of need? Who wouldn't want to get lost in such a feeling?
Raidou deepens the kiss, wanting more, leaning back and pulling Yuji closer with him. The temptation to push away from the table, down to the tatami floor is so tempting, the thought making him hold Yuji's hand tighter.]
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This makes him feel better. He feels whole, and human, and cherished, and he feels the utter joy of knowing that Raidou likes him as much as he does in return.
Following where his boyfriend leads, he slides into his space, wraps around him, following the movement of their bodies as he lets himself deepen the kiss. His fingers squeeze, his other arm wrapping around him as best as he can, deepening the kiss and chasing the feeling.
Yuji wants to memorise this: the way Raidou feels against him, the sharpness of their kisses, the heat of his blush on his cheeks as he chases it. ]
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Temptation wins out. Raidou hesitantly unlinks their hands, so he can use his to grab the front of Yuji's onsen robe and pull him back with him to the floor. He refuses to let the kiss break, only finally stop long enough moments later to catch his breath, looking up at Yuji wide-eyed as he does. He can't believe he did that.
What if that was too far? He doesn't regret it, but... those 1920s sensibilities sometimes rear their ugly head.
He has no words. Why can't he ever think of what to say, even when he really wants to speak? Raidou only looks up at Yuji, breathless and heart pounding. He takes a hand to cup his cheek, thumb lightly tracing along the scar that runs down his face.]
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It's hard to resist temptation, to stop himself from continuing to kiss him, because they haven't broached this, have they? They've confirmed they're boyfriends, have matching rings, but moving forward... Is this the kind of thing that merits a discussion? That he should say he's okay with? Should he be the one reaching out to say that he doesn't mind, that he wants, yearning for this connection that's wrapping around him and making him feel soft?
Raidou leans back and Yuji shifts, their faces still close, and he licks his lips. Head tilting into Raidou's touch, he smiles. ]
Hey. [ Turning his head, he presses a soft, gently kiss against his palm. ] Is... Are you okay... With this?
[ The kiss... ]
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His other hand moves to Yuji's upper back, fingers splayed and holding him there closely.]
Yes.
[He leans in to kiss him softly on the lips, then along his jawline, nuzzling him there momentarily.]
Very.
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Each soft touch feels like a gift, the most wonderful thing he's ever been given, and he sighs softly as he nudges their noses together, soft and sweet. ]
Yeah... It's the same for me. I want to kiss you all the time. Constantly.
[ It's pretty obvious, considering how often he does it without thinking, how much he reaches for Raidou, body acting on instinct before his mind catches up. ]
You're the only person I've ever kissed like this. The only person I want to...
[ Sliding close again, into the personal space that he's claiming as his own, Yuji kisses him again, one hand resting on his cheek to cup it gently, the other sinking to grab at his robe tight, as if afraid he might disappear. ]
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[It was a foregone conclusion in his young life as a summoner that he'd never get to experience anything like this. That he could get dragged to this strange place and find someone like Yuji still seems so surreal to him. There will always be that background anxiety that at any moment, either of them could be gone from here. It's happened with several others Raidou knows; it even happened to Yuji, even though they managed to bring him back.
It hasn't even been that long, but he can't imagine being here without him now.]
You're the only one I want.
[Words spoken breathlessly before they're kissing again, the hand on Yuji's back gripping just as tightly as Yuji to him.]
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For all that Raidou was a summoner - meant to be distant, apart from things - Yuji had been scarred from loss. Broken, beaten down from the people taken from him, filling him with fear and horror that could not be forgotten, but it hasn't broken him completely. He still wants, he still yearns, and when he has Raidou in his arms he feels filled, the joy and affection bursting inside of him like fireworks.
They hold on to each other as the fear of letting go makes them ache - Yuji understands. He gets it. He knows.
Sinking into Raidou, he hums softly against his mouth. ]
Then I guess you're mine. My Johei...
[ Eyes still lidded, it's easy to go back to the kiss, to press, to deepen it as much as he's allowed, memorising the moment and holding it close to his heart. ]
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The passerby doesn't stop, but Raidou does, watching to be sure, huffing lightly in annoyance as he catches his breath again. When his eyes go back to Yuji, the annoyance is already long gone. He leans forward to whisper.]
My Yuji.
[A gentle kiss, ending it with the ever-so-slightest nip of his lower lip. A tease. A preview. He gingerly pulls Yuji's robe back up his shoulder as well.]
Let's pick this up later.
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It doesn't mean he doesn't want more, but... He can wait until they're somewhere a little more appropriate. The idea of being able to curl up with Raidou again, to layer him with more kisses, to touch him and cup his face with more privacy makes him giddy, and he huffs a little laugh. ]
Yeah. I'm yours.
[ Licking his lips, he hesitates, almost stealing another kiss before he takes Raidou's hand, pressing it to his fingers and knuckle, sliding back into his seat and adjusting his robe casually, as if he wasn't just basically on top of his boyfriend making out with him. ]
... Later today, or?
[ He can't be blamed. ]
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So eager... Raidou leans against him, getting comfortable.]
Alright. If you want.
[Because he sure does.]
We'll be finishing up here soon anyway, yes?
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Because he's allowed! Because they're boyfriends!
Yuji grins, turning back to the food and then, absently, picking some up and offering to feed it to Raidou. ]
Yeah, once lunch is done. [ A pause, a hesitation - because Choso might be in his room, so - ] We can... Go back to yours?
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... Okay.
[He nods lightly, face not showing the signs of the intense butterflies in his stomach that's occurring right now.]
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[ Best date ever. Amazing. Yuji works his way through the meal, passing Raidou little bites as he goes, without thinking too much about it. He's just happy to be here, cuddling close. ]
The water helped, right? With the aches?
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Definitely. I don't think I realized how badly I needed that.
[The LILITH medics were pretty worried about him. Still are, really. They have him checking in after all those electric shocks to make sure nothing else has gone wrong, and an extra lecture or two about about restraint. It's a good thing those healing nanobots came back online.]
I think it's now mandatory to make a visit after missions, don't you?
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Yuji hooks his chin over Raidou, draws him close and hums softly. ]
A regular date, then. A mission, and then we can come to the onsen, and then we go back to your room. Routine.
[ Hopefully they won't need to be as worried next mission. Hopefully, it'll be easier. ]
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Sounds like a plan.
[He presses his forehead to Yuji's, grinning a little.]
But you're free to stop by my room anytime.
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Hah? ]
Well, uh. Choso would worry.
[ Because they share a room. And stuff.
Any time?
Yuji squeezes him gently. ]
I'll come over all the time if you give me that kind of freedom.
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[There's enough to worry about when it comes to Yuji; Raidou wouldn't want to add to that.
But Raidou felt all that anguish and grief hiding in Yuji. He can't take that back now. Raidou won't forget it.]
But whenever you need me... you'll know where I am.
[A finger lightly touches the ring on Yuji's hand.]
Just say the word, and I'll be there. You don't have to be alone.
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How is he meant to act all normal after something that romantic and tender?
Nuzzling into him, Yuji huffs a soft noise. ]
I'll come too. Whenever you need me.
[ A small smile, turning his hand to squeeze them together. ]
I'm going to steal you away to your room right now if you're not careful, Johei.
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