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ᴛsᴜʀᴜᴍᴀʀᴜ ᴋᴜɴɪɴᴀɢᴀ 『鶴丸国永』 ([personal profile] cranekin) wrote in [community profile] synflux2024-06-02 02:33 am

( OPEN ) JUNE CATCH ALL

WHO: Tsurumaru and you
WHAT: Open memshares and custom starters
WHERE: Vegas, memories of the past
WHEN: June
WARNINGS: Murder/death (including children), violence, religious themes


catch-all for the month, open to using event prompts, setting up starters, etc.
if you would like an original starter or have your own idea, hit me up [plurk.com profile] yosakoi | discord: diejoubus
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[personal profile] lifeprice 2024-06-07 07:24 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Normally, Aki is able to confess his feelings easily enough, able to say what's on his mind - usually when he lends himself to anger, bursts of irritation that slam into him before he can snap it down. This kind of heartbreak is a little different, because he tends to try and keep that to himself as much as possible. It's not normal for him to share that kind of guilt and hurt, because he's been alone for so long.

The only person he had to trust was Himeno, and that was a little different too.

Looking at Tsurumaru, he feels a sense of utter longing. He wants to reach out and touch him, and his metallic fingers flex for a moment before he breathes out and steps forward, head tilted, body aching and feeling like he might end up collapsing under the weight of his own feelings. ]


If you need to go out, I'll go with you.

[ Lifting his hand, without thinking about it, Aki reaches out and presses his fingers against Tsurumaru's cheeks - and then it's all different.

The memory slides around them like a burst of heat, then cold air. It's not the overheated warmth of the Las Vegas desert any more, it's the chill of winter, deep down to the bones. Tsurumaru might hear the sound of Aki behind him, but's much, much younger than the man he knows, a childishness that comes with a snowball flying by him.

You're so annoying! I said, cut it out!

Hitting a smaller figure, who throws a snowball right back, and they play together. Two brothers playing in the snow as if there's nothing wrong, as if nothing could ever be wrong. Eventually, Taiyo complains, hands flexing because of his chill, and Aki sighs as he steps forward.

If you catch a cold, I'll be the one in trouble. Playing catch should keep your hands warmer. Go and get our gloves from the house.

Taiyo runs to the house. He turns, and he waves, and Aki smiles. It seems like a normal, happy scene, two brothers together in the chill of winter.

Then the Gun Devil passes over Japan, and the house is gone, and there is only Aki, staring at the remains of everything he's ever loved, unable to react with anything except pure horror and pain on his face. ]
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[personal profile] lifeprice 2024-06-07 08:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[ There's nothing.

There's nothing.

Aki is a broken shell of a boy, unable to move even as arms wrap around him. It's as if he doesn't feel them at all, as if he's become the ghost and the world in front of him is one that he is haunting, his eyes gaunt and expression twisted in that horrifying, disgusting mirage of grief and hurt. He's a child, and in front of him, everything he has ever known and loved has been torn away in an instant.

There's a buzz of energy around them, like the echo of a television or radio broadcast; an explanation that Aki might not be able to give, but folds in with the memory as if the two are intrinsically bound together. November 18, 10:00am, the Gun Devil hits Japan for 26 seconds. The death toll was 57,912.

It's a quiet winter day and within twenty-six quiet, isolated seconds, Aki's entire life fell to pieces around him, torn from his hands, shredded. Parents he had scowled at had been taken from him. A brother he had sent back into the house had died. Aki was the last one standing, the only one remaining, shivering and shaking in the winter air, the cold oppressive and horrifying as he blinks, and blinks. He rubs at his eyes, as if that would make his house come back, revive the lost treasures that have been stolen, but there is nothing but pure, white agony.

Back in reality, there are arms around Aki, and he is shaking and shivering in just the same way, one hand lifted to press over his mouth, his body wobbly as if he might collapse at any second. It's only the solid weight of Tsurumaru's arms wrapped around him that seem to keep him standing, and he lurches, a pained, hoarse sound coming out from his throat, his eyes blinking rapidly. ]


Tsuru...
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[personal profile] lifeprice 2024-06-08 01:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[ There are some things that should not be relived, some things that you shouldn't have to see more than once in your life - and for Aki, witnessing his family torn from him, ripped away in the space of less than a minute, is something that he still saw in his nightmares. Feeling bile rise up in his throat, he has to lift a hand to press it over his mouth, blinking rapidly, trying to stop himself from crying.

He can't - not here, not in front of so many people, not in front of Tsurumaru, not when his hurt and his grief feels so sick, so deep inside of him. With their relationship up in the air, with his own discontent a poison in his veins, all he can do is try and hold himself together.

Still, he leans. He leans into him, letting himself rest on this one person, his soul bared and his heart ready to be plucked. ]


... I'm sorry. You shouldn't have...

[ Seen it. Had to see it. Have to be here, to hold him up, to be there to be the one for Aki to lean on, to anchor himself to. Tsurumaru shouldn't been burdened with the depth of Aki's torment, not when his heart belongs elsewhere, a hiss of hope in the desert. ]

I think I need to sit down.
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[personal profile] lifeprice 2024-06-08 03:03 pm (UTC)(link)
There is.

[ It's a horrible thing to have to see, to witness, even if it's from someone you care about - or even worse, being someone they care about. There are reasons why he doesn't talk about his past, about what happened to him, because his motivation didn't matter beyond killing the Gun, and no one really got close enough to learn more in depth about his hurt.

Walking with Tsurumaru is easy, and Aki lets him be his guide, until he can slide down into a chair and let his elbows settle over his thighs, head in his hands. It takes him a moment to breathe in and out, to come back to himself, to make himself feel... As if he can push his pieces back together.

Tsurumaru speaks, and Aki lifts his head, reaching out on instinct to take his hand, to push his fingers between the other man's and hold onto him. The dampness of his eyes betrays his fragile state, and he shakes his head, hesitating for a moment.

Maybe he has no right to ask for this, after the way he had stepped away, put up a wall, his own hurt making him sour and bitter, but the idea of being without Tsuru right now...

Squeezing, gentle, Aki gazes at him. ]


... Will you stay with me?
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[personal profile] lifeprice 2024-06-08 03:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It's almost too easy to give in to Tsurumaru's kindness, his softness, to let himself be permitted to cling to it. Aki doesn't want to dwell on his own past, on his own heartache, trying to move past it here - the kind of thing Denji and the others would want for him to do - but coming face to face with it makes it impossible to ignore.

Fabric brushes over his eyes, and he shudders immediately, unable to resist. Leaning forward, his forehead rests against Tsurumaru, his eyes closing as he sinks. ]


Thank you.

[ Aki means it, too, even if his voice is low and quiet. One hand tries to hold onto Tsurumaru's, the other slips around him, to cling to his body in a half-embrace, permitting himself to grip onto him, to seek out his comfort and his sweetness. ]

... That's why I started hunting devils. Because of that day.
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[personal profile] lifeprice 2024-06-08 04:04 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The way that Tsurumaru is treating him is a reflection of how Aki had taken care of him before, and it fills him with a sense of utter joy - his despair at the idea of Tsurumaru being in love with someone else eased by the way he's being treated now. Tsuru wouldn't do this with him if he didn't care, wouldn't offer him this sweet relief if he wasn't as invested.

There's a desire to mention it, to bring it up, but Aki can't bring himself to do it, not when he still feels so tired and worn down, ripped to shreds down inside of him.

Squeezing at this man, the person that has so captivated him, Aki nods his head. ]


The Gun Devil.

[ Their fates were sickeningly intertwined. Aki, fighting the Gun Devil, twisted and reshaped into the Gun Fiend and having his life torn away from him at the hands of another. Nuzzling into Tsurumaru's chest, he breathes out a soft, shaky noise. ]

It killed my family, so I wanted to kill it in return. I wanted to... Have some kind of vengeance.
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[personal profile] lifeprice 2024-06-08 04:31 pm (UTC)(link)
I got cold feet.

[ Another echo of a memory, one he'd shared with Bakugo. Not able to live with the idea of Denji and Power being unhappy, unwilling to risk their lives, not able to let himself die and leave them alone... But it hadn't mattered at all, in the end.

The Future was set. Aki was destined to die. He was born for it, from the very start.

Squeezing at Tsurumaru, he breathes out. ]


More than anything, I wanted him to be happy.
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[personal profile] lifeprice 2024-06-08 04:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Denji.

[ Shuddering, voice filled with grief and hurt, squeezing and squeezing and wanting to be anchored, to be saved from his own heart. ]

I wanted to make him happy, but all I did was cause him more pain.
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[personal profile] lifeprice 2024-06-08 05:14 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The gentle soothing is enough, and some of that tension bleeds away, Aki relaxing into the solid, warm weight of the man in front of him. His heart is still racing, but... It is for other reasons, now.

Embarrassingly so, after the nightmare come to life. ]


He made me want to live.

[ To outlive the Gun Devil. To survive. To find peace. Denji had given him that. ]

I remember.
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[personal profile] lifeprice 2024-06-08 05:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Following the instructions, he nods, taking a long, deep breath in before he breathes out, fingers brushing absently along the shake of Tsurumaru's spine.

He's solid. Warm. Perfect, in his arms, and Aki lets himself hold onto that, lets himself bask in the comfort of Tsuru being here, at his side, not running off again. ]


I want to. I want to live.

[ A confession in itself. He leans back, tilting his head up to look at Tsurumaru, expression softer now. ]

I'm happy, Tsuru.
Edited 2024-06-08 17:31 (UTC)
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[personal profile] lifeprice 2024-06-08 05:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[ How is he meant to resist? Even knowing what he knows - or, rather, what he thinks he knows - the touch is soft, intimate, and Aki closes his eyes for a moment, leaning into the palm against his cheek.

Carefully, he leans up, brushing their mouths together, impossible to resist. Live happily, Tsurumaru said, and this is what has brought him happiness. ]


I... I'll live.
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[personal profile] lifeprice 2024-06-08 06:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Aki truly doesn't want more than this.

The kiss is an anchor, a gentle reminder of what there is between them, that despite the spineless way he'd pulled away, from his own tormented thoughts, he still cares deeply for Tsurumaru. It's a way of reminding himself of one of the reasons he wants to find happiness in this strange, twisted place - because his heart has been caught in a net that he has no wish to escape from.

His smile is soft, a little gentle as he nods, understanding.

(The sleeve is endearing, too, and when Aki leans back he reaches to take both of Tsurumaru's hands in his own. ]


I'd appreciate that.

[ Their noses touch, a gentle press together, before he nods and rises to his feet. ]

Let's go.

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